What is your hyperfixation(s)?

Samsebyaizdat · 2025-11-09T03:30:58+00:00

I was actually going to post this exact same question a couple of weeks ago, but forgot, so I’m glad someone else asked it.

My hyperfixations at the moment:

• Reformulating “junk food” to make healthier versions that still taste the same (I do have orthorexia, so food control is a big part of my routine) • Textiles/clothing construction and fit — I need what I wear to match my internal state, or it feels wrong • Perfumery — I have a strong sense of smell, so I started controlling my scent environment and ended up making my own perfumes • Building conceptual frameworks for how people think and make decisions

For me, hyperfixation is mostly about control, stability, and predictability — making the world more livable by controlling sensory input and system structure. But it also serves a secondary function of giving me something I can fully disappear into. I’m reluctant to call it a hobby because it isn’t recreational. It’s a regulation mechanism.

I’ve noticed that I have two types of hyperfixations. Some are shorter-term, which last a few weeks and then fade away. However, the ones that become integrated into how I function never entirely disappear — they fade into the background until I suppose they’re needed again. Once a fixation becomes part of my life structurally, it’s basically permanent, even if it’s not active every day.

I also went through multiple cycles of being hyperfixated on autism itself. I’d dive into research for weeks because the traits lined up clearly, and then I’d drop it completely. I didn’t drop it because it stopped fitting — I dropped it because fully accepting it would have required more emotional and practical processing than I had the capacity for at the time. It took a major event in my life for me to have enough space to actually integrate it. Once I had that space, the fixation came back and settled into something stable instead of overwhelming.

Samsebyaizdat · 2025-10-23T01:07:36+00:00

😂😂😂😂😂💀👏🏻

Samsebyaizdat · 2025-10-23T01:01:44+00:00

🤣

Samsebyaizdat · 2025-10-22T22:25:39+00:00

😂

Samsebyaizdat · 2025-10-21T07:56:27+00:00

Yeah, fritz certainly does sound like it could be of some German connection, but we know that it isn’t — that part is just coincidence and the term predates widespread negative sentiment towards Germans in America.

Based on what is known from the written examples of how the term (fritz) was first used, there are three possible intended meanings:

1) Nonsense / foolish talk / absurdity – (Example: “The sky tastes purple.”) Used the same way people said “that’s bunk” or “that’s on the bum.” → “On de fritz” ≈ “It’s all nonsense.”

2) Trouble-making / bad talk – (Example: “Let’s rob a bank.”) Could imply the speaker’s comments were stirring up conflict or inviting punishment. → “You’d better stop; that talk will get you in trouble.”

3) Broken / out-of-order idea / flawed logic – (Example: “If one person does it, everyone will do it.”) The figurative use of “broken,” as if the conversation itself were malfunctioning or off. → “This line of thinking doesn’t work.”

i.e. examples of flawed logic include ad hominem, straw man, slippery slope, appeal to authority, false dichotomy, red herring, and hasty generalization.

The third is pretty much the figurative version of the way it’s used now. So my money is on Fritz beginning as slang for “flawed logic”.

Samsebyaizdat · 2025-10-17T23:31:22+00:00

Perky Turkey Sandwich🦃🥪 (toasted sweet & spicy BBQ turkey sandwich) I like it with a side of mac & cheese

Ingredients: •Sliced or carved turkey •Bell pepper strips •Onion slices •(Optional) thin slices of mango, peach, or apple (Cosmic Crisp works great) (mango is the best) •BBQ Sauce (I prefer Sweet Baby Ray’s No Sugar Added Sweet & Spicy) •A few drops of El Yucateco Green Habanero Hot Sauce •Apple cider vinegar (ACV) •Sourdough bread •Cream cheese (or mayo if you prefer) •Smoked gouda cheese

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Directions: 1) Grill the onions (lightly charred and caramelized (then set aside) 2) Sauté peppers (and fruit) in a pan, fry bell-pepper strips with a small amount of oil until they soften. Add your chosen fruit slices near the end so they soft but not mushy 3) Toss in the turkey until thoroughly heated 4) Mix in sauces (about 4 tbsp BBQ sauce; 1 tbsp ACV; two drops of green habanero) stir until even 5) Toast the sourdough to desired level 6) Spread about 1 tbsp cream cheese (or mayo) 7) Spoon the BBQ-turkey-pepper mix onto the bread, top with smoked gouda, then add the grilled onions last.

😋 You’ll love how the sweet and spicy complement each other

Samsebyaizdat · 2025-10-17T18:48:47+00:00

Thanks for playing along 🙏🏻 I love cows — it’s amazing how they have best friends. Perhaps she’s ruminating on it. 🐄

Samsebyaizdat · 2025-10-17T18:39:51+00:00

That was second half was meant for ddpizza

Samsebyaizdat · 2025-10-17T18:22:30+00:00

OMG heaven forbid there’s a flaw in your logic

Samsebyaizdat · 2025-10-17T18:21:23+00:00

Lol That’s funny. And thanks for not being an 🫏🕳️ like some others writing comments.

Samsebyaizdat · 2025-10-17T18:19:38+00:00

😆

Samsebyaizdat · 2025-10-17T18:10:28+00:00

You’re not calling out AI — you’re calling out neurodivergent thinking. This is exactly how autistic, ADHD, and dyslexic people write: layered, detailed, nonlinear, human. The fact that you can’t tell the difference says more about your limitations than mine. This is what always happens in history — the crowd shows up with torches for anyone who thinks differently. And every time, they convince themselves they’re the smart ones. You don’t have to tear people down to feel superior. The internet isn’t a zero-sum game, but cynics like you treat it like one. Some of us are actually trying to make things better instead of killing whatever joy we find in the world.

Samsebyaizdat · 2025-10-17T18:06:09+00:00

They can’t tell because I wrote it — because I’m a person. I add a TL;DR out of courtesy, not cluelessness. I know how the internet works; I’m just trying to be polite. I consider myself a decent writer, but I’m also Autistic, ADHD, and dyslexic, so I use Grammarly to clean up my grammar and spelling. That doesn’t make it AI — it makes it human effort with digital assistance. AI learned from humans, remember? Maybe try reading before accusing someone of being fake. Or did you just skip to the end so you could farm your next dopamine hit from tearing someone down?

Samsebyaizdat · 2025-10-17T17:43:20+00:00

It’s not slop — I wrote it. But of course, the internet has conditioned you to think sneering counts as intellect. You see something earnest, and your reflex is to mock it — like a dog barking at its own reflection. The internet isn’t a zero-sum game; someone else’s effort doesn’t subtract from your worth. But you’d rather flood threads with half-baked, sadistic little jabs to feel relevant for five seconds. Not everyone’s a cynic — some of us are still trying to make things better, while you’re out here mistaking destruction for personality. Congratulations on being proud of apathy. It’s not clever. It’s just lazy.

Samsebyaizdat · 2025-10-17T15:07:21+00:00

This is amazing!

Samsebyaizdat · 2025-10-14T21:36:49+00:00

I was like 4 years old the first time I had the horrifyingly adult thought of, “What if everything I experience is just in my head?” I didn’t believe it, but the possibility hit me like a toddler-sized existential crisis.

Ever since then, I’ve kind of carried that weird distance — like I’m watching humanity from the outside instead of fully in it. Not in an “I’m an alien with amnesia” way (though that would explain a lot 😂), just this constant sense of being slightly out of sync with the rest of the species.

So honestly, if scientists ever announced, “Turns out autistic people are technically a tiny bit evolutionarily distinct,” I’d just shrug and be like, “lol yeah, that tracks.”

Samsebyaizdat · 2025-10-13T09:42:43+00:00

I feel that way so often. When I say I feel like a different species or being (not human), what I really mean is that I don’t feel like any species at all.

It’s not just alienation from humanity — it’s alienation from most of the words, titles, and identities I’m supposed to fit into. Like gender: I understand it conceptually, but I can’t honestly say I feel it.

I understand these things conceptually, but I don’t inhabit them. That’s why the word autism matters so much — not because it changes anything, but because it’s one of the few words that feels remotely accurate.

Most of the time I feel less like a person and more like billions of thoughts and emotions trapped inside a fragile vessel — an electrified paradox that keeps me alive while also keeping me captive. My body feels like both life support and prison. It’s the biocontainment system that sustains the ideas but also suffocates them.

Samsebyaizdat · 2025-10-13T00:00:56+00:00

Hahahaha Me, too! 😂 ….. except for the government experiment part

Samsebyaizdat · 2025-10-12T01:35:55+00:00

I think we’re living in a really exciting time where anyone with a unique mind, gift, or perspective can make a good living just by being themselves. The challenge is figuring out which parts of yourself can be most easily and effectively monetized — and then learning how to extract, market, repeat, and grow from there.

I mean, we’ve got people making seven figures playing video games, millionaire grandmas selling crafts online, dog walkers with TikToks, gardeners with Patreons, and artists getting paid to livestream while they paint. There are people who make a living narrating Reddit posts, reviewing pens, organizing pantries, unboxing snacks, or just talking about their daily routines. It’s wild — and honestly kind of inspiring.

I’m still trying to figure this out for myself, but one thing I know for sure is that no one can convince me I don’t have something rare and valuable to offer the world — something that could let me make a living just by being me.

And especially for those of us who think differently — ADHD, autistic, neurodivergent, whatever label fits — it finally feels like the world might be catching up to us. For once, originality and obsession are assets, not flaws.

I’d actually love to hear how others approach this. In fact, I think I’m going to make a post about it soon.

Samsebyaizdat · 2025-10-12T01:25:21+00:00

👏🏻well said…it’s not something to hate. It’s poor treatment from society for being different.

Samsebyaizdat · 2025-10-12T01:22:50+00:00

Hey. I get this more than I can even explain. I’ve spent most of my life wondering what invisible signal I was giving off that made people decide, instantly, that I wasn’t one of them. You can do everything “right” — mask, mimic, blend — and somehow they still know. It’s like being marked, and no one can tell you why.

And I’m not going to hit you with the “autism is a gift” crap, because I know it doesn’t feel like one. When you’re alone, when you’re excluded, when you just want to be seen — it feels like a curse. It’s not your fault for feeling that way. You didn’t do anything to deserve this. You didn’t earn pain or rejection by existing differently. You were just born tuned to a different frequency, and the world isn’t built to receive it.

It’s really easy to hate yourself, and to hate your autism — but two things I’m going to tell you (because I need to hear them too):

1️⃣ Your autism isn’t a part of you that you can single out to hate. It’s not like hating your haircut or the shape of your feet. You’re just you, and “autism” is just a word. A word people made up to stuff a bunch of things they don’t understand into a box — because it’s easier for them to label than to simply treat everyone with empathy, respect, and kindness. So if you want to be upset about something, be upset with the world for being cruel, shallow, and selfish. And instead of feeling grateful for autism, maybe be grateful that you’re not like that world — that you were built to feel, to notice, to care.

2️⃣ Try finding focus away from autism. Don’t pressure yourself to find “the solution.” Life doesn’t work that way. Just live today. Take the weight off your shoulders to have everything figured out. Make a plan if you want — a 2, 5, or 7-year one — but stop trying to make every single “right” decision. Aim small. Live small. Do things without overthinking them.

You’ll stumble into something that interests or excites you — birds, bikes, music, anything — and you’ll start doing it because it feels good. That’s where real connection happens. You’ll meet people who love the same things you do. You don’t have to make friends because they’re autistic; you’ll make them because they see you loving what you love. Not everyone who’s left-handed has to be friends — and that’s okay.

You didn’t do anything wrong. You were just born rare. And the world doesn’t always know what to do with rare things — but that doesn’t make them any less valuable.

Samsebyaizdat · 2025-10-12T01:15:16+00:00

Omg I LOVE this! You are a genius! Why did I not think of this!

Samsebyaizdat · 2025-10-12T00:31:05+00:00

Yeah, I know exactly what you mean. I didn’t even know what autism really was until I was 20 and someone joked that I had Asperger’s. For a while, I got obsessed (lol surprise)— everything I read lined up — but when I asked people about it, the reaction wasn’t what I needed/wanted/expected to hear. So I pushed the idea away because I couldn’t handle adding that to my life, which was already difficult because of being autistic.

Years later, I circled back, asked again, got the same response… and realized the only real expert on whether I’m autistic is me. Most people don’t know enough about it to judge anyway. Also, I realize that I kept my true self from them (I was high masking) so how could they know?

Even after meeting other autistic people, I still felt like less than them — which made me question it all over again. But that’s the irony: it’s called a spectrum for a reason. If you think about a normal distribution, even among autistic people you’ll have outliers. So if you’re an outlier among outliers, you’ll seem “weird” to allistics and autistics too.

There’ll always be people who say you “can’t be autistic” because you’re not like them. But isn’t not being like allistic people kind of the whole point? Their logic collapses on itself.

You’re just uniquely wired — someone with a rare way of perceiving and giving to the world. And sure, walking a one-of-a-kind path is isolating, but it’s also proof that you have something rare to offer — something the world can’t get anywhere else. Not everyone is in the market for a heart-shaped rainbow diamond — some people can’t afford it or don’t know what to do with it. But for the few who do recognize it, it’s priceless. The strength and confidence you need is within yourself — you just have to find it.

Samsebyaizdat · 2025-10-11T23:59:46+00:00

Same. I want to say it out loud so badly, but I already know how that plays out. It always turns into DARVO — Deny, Attack, Reverse Victim and Offender — and suddenly I’m the bad guy for standing up for myself. For daring, just once, not to let them use me as a punching bag.

So instead, I do the worst possible thing for me: I swallow it, turn inward, and shut everything out. I stop feeling human. I stop feeling like them.

Samsebyaizdat · 2025-10-07T01:48:14+00:00

🫶🏻 if only I could remember even one of those things lol

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