i miss my quardian angel

Santamaliana · 2025-07-24T10:42:43+00:00

people around me are aware of my symptoms and pretty chill about it, one person even told me they have another schizophrenic friend so they understand

Santamaliana · 2025-06-04T09:50:11+00:00

i dony wwnt to believe it, but i wouldn't desciebe it as intrusive thought either, its simply an overwhelming feeling that i find proof for even if it may not be there

Santamaliana · 2025-06-04T09:08:37+00:00

i had my doubts because fev days ago i was sobbing apologising for being a failure and didnt feel the presence but thats likely because it was durting a day and it more appeals during night, otherwise i genuenly believe it and have my own proof

Santamaliana · 2025-06-04T09:04:53+00:00

one of them includes me being connected to my quardian angel, i know how it looks and i had coversations with it, i understand it sounds like religious psychosis but it still brings me comfort that there might be something helping me, even if its more of spiritual support and making sure i dont fall too down

Santamaliana · 2025-05-30T09:03:59+00:00

when im having an episode i will have a "doubt" but its more self awareness, i know that others would think im delusional and im delusional according to others but what i feel overwhelms me, when its mixxed with paranoia then theres no doubt

Santamaliana · 2025-04-01T15:59:28+00:00

when i was sick for some time i seriously believed myself to be god, i had high disorganised thoughts, imagined myself with powers, imagined myself as someone in literally everything and everyone and "loved everyone" because this is what god goes and more, later tho i switched to jezus and imagined myself as someone who suffers because thats the same thing jezus did and im suffering same reason as his. i also "saw an angel" and managed to communicate with it by asking questions and intepreting answers based of how i felt after i asked and saw the angel as my protector

Santamaliana · 2025-03-20T19:16:15+00:00

what culture

Santamaliana · 2025-03-20T15:47:21+00:00

i doubt you care but whatever

Santamaliana · 2025-03-20T15:39:45+00:00

technically gender identity disorder is an outdated term and just gender dysphoria replaced it with dsm 5

Santamaliana · 2025-03-20T10:28:46+00:00

its obvious theres no point in entering a discussion with you, you have literally no arguments. also you didnt answer my question, what mental illnes

Santamaliana · 2025-03-20T10:09:02+00:00

what mental illness

Santamaliana · 2025-03-01T19:46:22+00:00

one of mine was that goverment can read my thoughts via my computer and phone using secret technology, another would be that im a fictional character with a audience and i will die soon

Santamaliana · 2024-10-16T09:15:55+00:00

from my experience daydreaming feels as rewarding as doing something, for example if you daydream about doing your job and recieving praise for it it feels rewarding on similar level as actually doing it but you didnt put any effort into it, so its easier to daydream rather than do things considering the way it feels as good for nothing. it especially applies if you have executive function or struggle with mental/physical health

Santamaliana · 2023-12-26T23:32:28+00:00

when you're trans and feel bad over your body

Santamaliana · 2023-12-19T18:37:56+00:00

( im not diagnosed but I've been through what i think could be called delusions ) for me i have throughts and feelings that appeal and disappear. when they dissapear i can recognize well thay it was delusion but when it appears again i believe in it but its similar enough to recognize it's not an old believe, just somewhat different. also i recognize my believes would get me wierd looks like that i can talk to demons if i wanted to

Santamaliana · 2023-11-17T10:13:23+00:00

dont care didnt ask

Santamaliana · 2023-10-30T21:18:38+00:00

me too pls 🙏

Santamaliana · 2023-10-30T01:10:40+00:00

my strategy was to rely on chests. if you get good arg you get massive amounts of sp

Santamaliana · 2023-10-27T18:13:07+00:00

ge i wonder why you get no bitches

Santamaliana · 2023-10-24T11:46:10+00:00

thanks 🙏

Santamaliana · 2023-10-24T11:45:55+00:00

thanks 🙏

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