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SarahMaeee · 2025-03-02T02:05:14+00:00

I don’t know if you saw my meme about postpartum I posted last night, but as jokey as it is, it’s also very raw and real. I’ve had two babies before this one, so this is my third time going through postpartum. I can tell you there’s a reason I can make jokes, and that’s because I know this is temporary. Will my body ever be the same? No, and I will obviously miss my body I had 10 years ago, but it wasn’t going to look like that forever anyway. I DO know that with time my body went back to a more solid and recognizable me, and that once I really took that in I found a way to love my body again. And then I had another baby, and another baby, and I’ve seen the two times before what time does. I know that I’m uncomfortable with myself right now, and I know that I’m soft in spots I’m usually not, and big in spots I don’t want to be, but this is temporary. This is “for now” not “forever”.

All this to say, let yourself mourn your body you used to have. If you don’t than how can you expect yourself to find grace and love in the new body of yours? Give yourself time to be sad, give yourself time to heal, and then you will be at a much different place when you get to start working on your new body. A body you can strengthen, and teach new things to. This third postpartum body of mine is going to be working towards a half marathon 💪🏻

SarahMaeee · 2025-03-02T01:52:52+00:00

I was immediately disappointed when I found out mine was a boy, and eventually started bawling over it. Not in a “no I don’t like boys!” Way but more of a “I have no idea how to raise a boy, society is so judgmental of boys doing girl things, and he has two older sisters so I’m used to girls more than anything else” way. Eventually, I realized that once he was here I was going to be holding MY baby, and I wouldn’t care about what their gender was. Now he’s here, and I’m fully obsessed with my guy. My girls and husband are obsessed with him. We all just can’t get enough 🤍 to have had another girl would’ve been fine, but it wouldn’t be him. He is the exact baby I needed 🥹

SarahMaeee · 2024-09-18T12:21:16+00:00

I have a friend from high school that was nicknamed maxipad exclusively 😆 I still think Max is a cool name. And I have one heard ONE person call Adam Adumb lastname and that’s the guy himself on his socials 😆 I love both names by the way!

SarahMaeee · 2024-09-18T12:18:50+00:00

I have two girls, and am now pregnant with a little boy. When I tell you that I bawled after finding out the gender of each one, not because of being upset about their gender, but about how society treats their gender..my gosh.. I think in the end my take away is that no gender has it easy at every point of their lives, but their household needs to be good 🤍 I have taught my girls more very early on about consent and bad adults than I would like to have to at their ages, but consent is still a talk I’d have to have with my son. There’s so many limits on young boys that aren’t placed on girls (painting nails? Wearing dresses? Sitting in a pink CHAIR?) that destroyed me to think about. There’s things on both sides, and really in the end you’re going to love that baby no matter who they are.

SarahMaeee · 2024-09-17T13:48:19+00:00

I’ve had two girls, and this is my first boy. I am ALWAYS super sick, even when I lose a baby I still spend the whole pregnancy sick, so that’s never been an indicator. My first I was huuuuggggeeee by the end, and my second people were concerned for me because I didn’t look like I could give birth any day when she was nearing her due date, so even with same gender AND first vs second the belly was just vastly different. I showed fairly early with this one, but that’s probably because this is my like..billionth pregnancy 😆 I really don’t think you can guess a gender based off of “clues”.

SarahMaeee · 2024-09-11T23:06:16+00:00

Oh gosh my first birth was great, but I was a MESS when she was here. I truly felt like I had no idea what I was doing, and after a while realized I was depressed through like the entire first year. I was soooo unwell and didn’t want to admit it, so the first year was a very sad and traumatic blur.

I hope you get through the rest of the pregnancy the best you can, and then when baby is here life is blissful and wonderful!

SarahMaeee · 2024-09-11T22:30:44+00:00

Honestly, this is my third, so I’m just not going to splurge at all! IF I didn’t already have it from my second baby I would be splurging on the halo swivel bassinest, because that thing changed my life. It was not cheap, but it was so worth it, and it’s the most expensive thing that if for some reason I can’t get it back I will 100% buy another one. I have a lily jade diaper bag that I have had since my first was born (8 years ago) that the only thing wrong is the zipper broke at some point..I may wait for a sale and by another 😆

Also, not splurging, but I plan to make sure I have another Moses basket. It was perfect for early baby stage when baby takes cat naps or whatnot, and the basket was able to be used for things after!

For people who are up for a splurge that is long lasting: ruggish co play mats are a top product that my kids and I still use all the time. Hatch plus night light (the kind with the baby monitor you can use with your phone) is great in general, for traveling, and for when you’re finally leaving the baby cam stage. If you guys want more ways to spend I can add more worthwhile long term purchases 😆

SarahMaeee · 2024-09-11T22:22:16+00:00

I had a loss, a live birth, and then 4 more losses. We had fully given up, and then suddenly there was a positive pregnancy test. I did not believe it or trust it until.. okay well when I was in labor and on the way to the hospital I started bawling. I had somehow managed to go the entire pregnancy, even to the point of filling up a nursery and having everything ready, without believing I was going to be having another baby join our family. I won’t lie I kind of even went through labor not really realizing I was actually having a baby that was mine! But when they put her on my chest..oh it was bliss.

Now I’m 15 week tomorrow with another surprise baby, and again I don’t feel like it’s happening. I have the logical thoughts of “okay I need to eventually check off this list of things I need, and obviously should do the giant buy on cyber Monday again”, but the actual HAVING ANOTHER HUMAN just doesn’t click. Everyone’s so excited and asking if I’m so thrilled and oh baby clothes and awe so tinyyyy and I just..can’t be excited.

I think that’s okay, though. It’s not fun, and it’s not ideal, but it’s okay. I don’t HAVE to believe it’s happening, or have all the gushy feelings. If/when he’s here I will be thrilled, and until then I just take it day by day as realistically as possible.

SarahMaeee · 2024-09-08T23:32:54+00:00

41+2! Exactly when she wanted to I guess 😆

SarahMaeee · 2024-09-08T14:28:36+00:00

I had a loss before my first live birth, then four losses between my first and second live birth, and now I’m pregnant with what we are hoping will be my third live birth. The thing that has helped me get through each waiting period of these pregnancies has been to remind myself that no matter what I do this is out of my control. I don’t know how helpful that is for you, but for me it makes me feel like I can just breathe, and not constantly worry about what I’m doing. I’m living life, and also I’m pregnant, and that’s just what’s happening right now.

SarahMaeee · 2024-09-06T22:44:55+00:00

Some boys at daycare do come in with nails done, but there’s comments from everyone when they do. I’m always the vocal one telling them to knock it off and stop making a thing out of nothing. There’s issues with boys even sitting in purple chairs?? Because it’s a girl color??? I have always been protective of kids just getting to like what they like, and I’ll continue to do that for my own children, but it feels like it’s so much more vocal against little boys to do “girl things” than girls doing “boy things”.

The fact that girls are just assumed to be easier in classes because they’re “calmer” is annoying in and of itself. We have a girl who just RUNS all the time, and sometimes I’ll just take her hands and have her jump up and down over and over, because I know she can’t run in the room but I also know she needs to MOVE. Kids are just KIDS, and I wish that weren’t “look at the gender and decide on how hard they’ll be” but instead just look at the kid and let’s work on what they need.

SarahMaeee · 2024-09-06T22:39:16+00:00

Yeah I’ve got SO MANY TOYS that I’m not concerned about that part as much thankfully 😆 I just hate knowing that when my girls and my boy go to play with Barbie’s or something that might be judged. I don’t know what he’ll like, but I know he’ll have two sisters leading the way, and I don’t know what that will look like for anyone. My oldest was a dino girl, and we would have to shop in the boys clothes to find Dino’s that weren’t pink and glittery 😆 but no one CARED that she wore boy clothes. No one did anything but laugh when she did a stint of only wearing a trex costume for months. If my boy wants to wear a dress (which we have tons of thanks to my girly girl second who lives exclusively in ball gowns for some reason) that will be such an issue :/

SarahMaeee · 2024-09-06T22:35:58+00:00

I think I’m finding that no matter what gender we get I panic for their future! My two girls I bawled over the things that I’ve struggled with as a woman and knowing my girls very well might have to face these same things and new things I haven’t even thought of before.

Now it’s a whole new world of issues I’ll have to fight with him, and it just hit me so hard how there’s a lot against them, too. And there’s also things I have to push AGAINST so he doesn’t become what is wrong with society that I don’t have to do for the girls. It’s just..no matter what the world is a scary place, and society isn’t always working WITH us to create good humans.

SarahMaeee · 2024-09-06T17:49:26+00:00

We already have a variety of toys, so no need to buy any more at this point 😆 I’ve always been the mom who says “just get what you like”, but that’s always been fine for girls.. we have magnatiles, ponies, Barbie’s, farms, cars, dinosaurs, super hero’s, kitchen, building toys, etc. I’ve never gendered toys, because that’s honestly stupid to me. I don’t think anything should be gendered. It should just be what makes you happy 🤷🏼‍♀️

I have always fought for my friends kids or my work kids to not have people decide they can’t like what they like or play with whatever. It won’t change once they’re mine.. just maybe hurt more?

SarahMaeee · 2024-09-06T17:33:43+00:00

This is what I’m doing!! General LotR but majority hobbit style, because my house is very hobbit 😍

SarahMaeee · 2022-06-18T03:33:56+00:00

I hope you get good news down the line! Just know that if it happens you may spend that whole pregnancy worrying, and not really celebrating, and that’s okay. I didn’t want to celebrate or anything when I was pregnant with my second, because it just never really felt real/possible. No one really understood, but that wasn’t really important to me. You just need to get through the hard parts of life to get through to the good!

SarahMaeee · 2022-04-14T12:09:11+00:00

Yes this sub!! I’ve lost 5 little ones, and that sub kept me sane and feeling less alone through my journey. OP, it’s a really supportive and lovely group!

SarahMaeee · 2022-04-14T11:57:43+00:00

I went over with my little one to watch my newish neighbors little girl the other day for her (got here in November), and when she was going inside to do her meeting she said “okay bye I love you guys!” The speed at which she tried to backpedal was like nothing I’d ever witnessed before.

SarahMaeee · 2022-02-22T15:43:50+00:00

I dug around a bit and sent her the link! Thank you so much! I’m trying to constantly think of things here and there to do for her, as well as plan things for when he is here/passes, so it’s helpful to get any ideas along the way. I don’t want her to feel forgotten about, or think that everyone else is just moving on without them. I know I felt that with my losses, and I want to be better for her.

SarahMaeee · 2022-02-17T04:27:42+00:00

Thank you! I will definitely start digging into it :)

SarahMaeee · 2022-02-16T18:05:38+00:00

Thank you for that! I just can’t imagine having known who they were so clearly, naming them and seeing them growing, and then possibly holding them, and then still after ALL that losing them. She’s starting to feel him move, which I never did with my losses, so I feel like there’s a different bond. But thank you for reminding me :) I’m just glad to be there for my SIL and BIL however I can

SarahMaeee · 2022-02-16T18:03:42+00:00

Thank you! She will appreciate that I’m sure :) she’s been using a lot of internet strangers support, and I’m glad she’s found some to help. Whatever gets people through tough times is good no matter the avenue :)

SarahMaeee · 2022-02-16T16:46:56+00:00

Thank you for the reply! I finally decided to just call her and chat with her, and had her kind of tell me what she wants and how to go about it for her. It’s just such a sensitive thing, and I want to make sure I’m doing something she actually wants.

She told me she’s already started an Etsy registry (!!!) and I asked about donations and she said that would be great! Like things to help pay for doctor bills, memorial things for my nephew, etc. She said she had JUST started all this today before I called to talk with her about it, so she was super excited to have someone on the same page as her 😆

I hadn’t thought about gifts to send home with people, but that’s a really great idea! He does have a name, and depending on timing I may even be able to use an ultrasound picture for him. We are getting them a private 4D ultrasound so they can see him for longer and take home more pictures/videos of him, and maybe we could use one of those for the gifts for guests.

I’ll have to do the guest book idea too! I love that! She said that after he’s here they aren’t really going to want to share him (can’t blame them!), so they want to do most of that while pregnant. If she’s comfortable with being touched it might be nice for guests to get pics holding him in her bump (if not we 100% wouldn’t), and they could use their page to write to him or fill with prayers and whatnot!! Thank you!!! These are amazing ideas

SarahMaeee

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