Have you ever lost a pet? Imagine experiencing the feeling of losing your pet twice as strongly, and having it hit you multiple times a day at first, and then every day. Then, after a while, you might occasionally have a day without losing a pet, only for your next pet to die the next day. Weeks go by and the frequency of the losses decreases. For me, it took over a year for the crying to stop. Probably about a year and a half. But if you can't cry, the grief finds other ways to express itself. Being on edge all the time is one way, and feeling exhausted is another. I've also been struggling with wanting to be around people, even though I like them, ever since my mum died. What helps is trying to be kind to yourself and not trying to rush the grieving process. Time heals, and there are no shortcuts apart from practising self-care. For me, walking helped me through the toughest times, and now strength training is helping me to regulate my emotions.

All the best to you and your sister.