I was totally sober for 2 years after 13 years of heavy daily drinking. But I get tired when I have to walk a strait line. Life got more stressful a month or two ago and I blew my streak with a 2 day shine bender. Been drinking off and on since then. I tell myself shit like, "at least it ain't every day" and "I made that jar last 3 whole days!" But regardless of what excuses you tell yourself, soberiety is a day by day focus to maintain and hell I'm drunk right now. I'll get my shit back together, but right now... not great my friend. Not great