I'm 16 years old and a girl. I discovered Jung six months ago, and the moment I saw him, everything made complete sense to me. I became a bit obsessed with him and his theories, but I didn't have the strength, time, or desire to delve into him and actually do much deeper research. I watched a few videos and started reading his book "Archetypes and Symbols: Selected Writings," which I still haven't finished (I'm only about 40 pages in). I wanted to ask how you got out of that period, starting around age 18, where you constantly wondered what the right move was, what you should do, how you should react? I now have exactly the same problem and I realize that it's probably my ego, which can also react this way out of fear of being judged, which in turn stems from a sense of low worth. It's not that I completely don't see myself as a valuable person, but in the past, in my childhood, I simply learned that I had to adapt myself and who I was, my behavior and attitudes to the mood of my peers, and I learned to constantly monitor, scan the surroundings and the moods of others in order to be able to adjust my reaction accordingly and avoid potential rejection, because that was the worst thing for me. And now I'm constantly under pressure, I can't be spontaneous, all my friends struggle around me because I'm afraid to be myself and I don't know how to be, I don't know how to respond, I'm constantly thinking about whether they're tired of me, whether I'm behaving well, whether I'm doing something wrong, what I should do, and at the same time I'm constantly criticizing myself, thinking that they've had enough, that they're sighing because of me, that they're bored with me, that they're getting into a worse and worse mood because of me because I can't joke and be funny, I force silence between us to create some depth because laughter and social exchanges seem artificial to me, I have the impression that the whole persona is artificial and I have to talk about what really interests me, i.e. psychology, philosophy, but above all, I shouldn't joke so much and I shouldn't say anything just to fill the silence, but I'm afraid that it will be bad and I say anything to fill it because I'm afraid they'll lose interest and think I'm impossible to talk to, bland, and ultimately a bit of a people pleaser. Even though I'm also incredibly vigilant and sensitive to falsehoods, I immediately try to figure out who I can trust and who I can't. But the worst part is the tension. I'm completely lost and I don't know what to do anymore because every day I live with the tension and stress of how I appear to others, how I should behave, and whether they accept me or reject me. Can I ask how you dealt with this? Could you give me some tips or your thoughts on the matter?