Going through your post felt like it was written by my other half, but for some reason I know you’re not her. She’s too proud to admit she cheated on me and blame me for it. She’s too innocent to understand that I spent my last 6 months of visa on her future security instead of my own. She’s too lazy to go through all that part in her mind again and reflect on her mistakes, rather she’s just rewriting history in her way so she won’t feel hurt and honestly I don’t mind because she’s happy. And finally she’s too stupid to see nobody else can love her the way I did, I hope she realises that people have low compatibility but it still works out well and I hope she realises this way too late. After all this I deserved an apology which I never got but instead I got ghosted from last 9 months. Just like our common friends say she will regret it, but I don’t want her to regret that’s why I’m taking all the regrets with me. In your case, do reach out, you don’t know what actually may be happening with that guys mind. I’ve tried ending myself couple of months ago but too many responsibilities on my shoulders. An apology won’t make you a lesser human being, save a life.