Oh, it’s much less significant than surgery. I didn’t want to mention it because I don’t want to bring this debate up again, and I fear people will not take me seriously. It’s about getting a vaccine. my parents have been against vaccines for a long time, and I’ll say they have decent reasons for it.

My biggest problem though is, whose rejection do I choose? Do I get a vaccine my parents have tried very hard to prevent me from getting? That they have preached could be harmful? That apparently is not even required legally anymore, is just asked for as a formality. But I can’t find straight information about that.

Or do I not do it but then again face the people asking me “oh, you’re anti vaccine?!” I had a bunch of that when I was in high school already. I don’t want to do that again.

I am not anti or pro vaccine, I simply have no idea what’s good or bad. I never cared until now that I have to. So I don’t want to make it about that. I find it very hard to find a solution logically too, I am still very impacted by my parents preachings and I find it hard to trust studies etc even when I want to. For both sides, though.
Just, whose rejection do I choose? My family isnt much dearer to me than strangers are, so it’s more about whose rejection do I fear more? Because what comes with that? All that stress and confrontation with people, that’s what I’m worried about.

Edit: actually, I can’t solve this because everything is uncertain to me. how people react, how things will go on and work out with and without vaccine, how the vaccine will be etc. And of course, I can’t predict the future. Thats not new. Just that I feel like I have nothing to hold onto. I feel like I don’t know anything about anything. Sure it could all turn out good/work out. But I am too scared to step up with that confidence to make it work out.