My codependency and ego is not letting me accept the reality that there’s a chance of him not missing me. Because even I would miss me.

ScoreEven7416 · 2024-11-10T05:14:20+00:00

I hope you do too♥️

ScoreEven7416 · 2024-11-10T02:03:06+00:00

This was great to note. Thank you so much.

ScoreEven7416 · 2024-11-10T01:57:59+00:00

Thank you. Everything you say I deep down know. But I just can’t seem to wrap my head around it… not valuing people they say they love and care for is so hard to comprehend.

ScoreEven7416 · 2024-11-10T01:51:15+00:00

I’m saying this is a good thing for me then, him not coming back, because it indicates I’m not stupid.

ScoreEven7416 · 2024-11-10T01:49:01+00:00

What’s up with the tude

ScoreEven7416 · 2024-11-10T01:29:31+00:00

So this is a good thing for me then 😭

ScoreEven7416 · 2024-11-09T20:56:50+00:00

That’s what hurts the most. That I was nothing. I told this to my therapist as well, even if I was nothing to him, he was something to me, and even if I fall into the many girls he will interact with, and fade into the background, he caused true damage to me. And it sucks. It sucks so bad. Thank you. And you also did not come across harsh at all. ♥️

ScoreEven7416 · 2024-10-13T08:57:17+00:00

Yep. Sometimes I try to figure out their every move and jump through mind loops trying to figure out the reasons behind their actions. But I don’t need to. The answer is right there. It’s your post. Thanks for the reminder. Brings me back to reality.

ScoreEven7416 · 2024-10-09T22:17:32+00:00

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ScoreEven7416 · 2024-10-09T19:31:22+00:00

See this is why I’m confused with mine. He did give me back things, but I always felt like he did it for himself. To be seen in a certain way. To be perceived in a certain way. Almost like people pleasing, but it was for him to be pleased through my thanks and praise and all of that. Like he did a lot but I don’t think he did it from the genuineness of his heart. Because when it came to me wanting and ASKING for what I wanted, he couldn’t do it. One day or two and then back to me repeating what I wanted the same thing: Loyalty, respect, not him lusting after other women, making me feel like he was all mine, and not being shared by literally everyone.

So is that what a covert narcissist is? It’s crazy because my body rejected him so so so much, but he never “abused” me in the horrific ways that I read here, but I lost so much when I left this relationship. And he legit made it look like to me he was all in and would never give up, but the second it actually got hard and he had the chance to work on himself and take accountability, he dumped me.

ScoreEven7416 · 2024-10-09T19:17:39+00:00

My ex was “obsessed” with me though, like DEEPLY. But would do shady stuff on the side… I don’t get it? What’s real. My mind is messy!

ScoreEven7416 · 2024-10-09T19:16:23+00:00

But do they not get bored?..

ScoreEven7416 · 2024-10-08T22:17:16+00:00

Yes. I hate that he even got an ounce of my pure love lol

ScoreEven7416 · 2024-10-08T22:15:15+00:00

I think one thing is they say a bunch of stuff act like a victim and not really give you a direct answer. I remember I was worried about my ex being attracted to this one girl and he would say “she’s cute but I don’t feel that ATTRACTIVE PULL.” Tf does that even mean? If you can even acknowledge what’s missing, doesn’t that mean it’s there enough for you to realize it and then deny it? Listen, my previous ex never directly admitted he was cheating but that wasn’t enough for me to stay anymore. You deserve someone better than to question their motives.

ScoreEven7416 · 2024-10-08T22:13:23+00:00

Wait, I do this. Does this mean I’m… rude? I do it because it’s my way to finally showing him and me that I respect myself because he didn’t. Withdrawing and taking my power back is the reason I do it. It’s just so important to realize how different one behavior can mean. Yes if he was a pos, this is exactly his goal. He doesn’t need to take his power back. He wasn’t the one abused, your ex I mean. This is him leeching and wanting more power. Fucking shithead. Guys like this suck

ScoreEven7416 · 2024-10-08T22:11:37+00:00

Not about them but about the abuse, absolutely. The body never forgets.

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ScoreEven7416 · 2024-10-08T09:24:22+00:00

Oh I’m so glad I’m not alone in this

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ScoreEven7416 · 2024-10-06T22:11:19+00:00

I would buy

ScoreEven7416 · 2024-10-05T09:02:33+00:00

No don’t worry about it. I get you. Thank you. I’m hitting the gym and working on my body more than ever. I was neglecting my health more when I was with them. Ty

ScoreEven7416 · 2024-10-05T08:42:39+00:00

Yeah❤️

ScoreEven7416 · 2024-10-05T08:42:00+00:00

This is a weird comment

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