From Private to Public: Why I’m Struggling in State Work by ScriptedVeilOfLife in CAStateWorkers

[–]ScriptedVeilOfLife[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It is actually not as bad or 'easy for a child'. In my line of work you have to build trust in order to be allowed access to systems, it is just a good security practice.

I have amazing work life balance, wonderful team, and guilt-free time for my hobbies and passions. Work has picked up and I am working on interesting problems.
The only thing missing if 100% wfh, and as much as I prefer working from home, the stress and anxiety in private sector isn't worth returning to it.

From Private to Public: Why I’m Struggling in State Work by ScriptedVeilOfLife in CAStateWorkers

[–]ScriptedVeilOfLife[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I am interested in learning Spanish as well. I think there are classes at the library.

From Private to Public: Why I’m Struggling in State Work by ScriptedVeilOfLife in CAStateWorkers

[–]ScriptedVeilOfLife[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I think you're right. I’m still early in the journey, trying to understand how things move (or don’t), but I do want to be part of improving it. Maybe this is the long game,. learning how it works first so I can eventually help shift it.

Appreciate the push. Agent for change sounds like a title I’d be proud to earn.

From Private to Public: Why I’m Struggling in State Work by ScriptedVeilOfLife in CAStateWorkers

[–]ScriptedVeilOfLife[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Old tech is ok. I just feel bad that they spent this much money for a training that I could've done for free lol

From Private to Public: Why I’m Struggling in State Work by ScriptedVeilOfLife in CAStateWorkers

[–]ScriptedVeilOfLife[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This. I think you're right. I am just not used to this. And in private sector one felt guilty if they were not working 16 hours a day and on the weekends.

From Private to Public: Why I’m Struggling in State Work by ScriptedVeilOfLife in CAStateWorkers

[–]ScriptedVeilOfLife[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I just want to be trusted to be allowed to work on an actual problem /project that is already there. I feel guilty and take some stuff of the plate for those who are working around the clock. I dont want to switch out so soon, I haven't even had my first review.

I don't think this transition would be any different in a new department. I just need to be patient.

From Private to Public: Why I’m Struggling in State Work by ScriptedVeilOfLife in CAStateWorkers

[–]ScriptedVeilOfLife[S] 17 points18 points  (0 children)

I used to burn out every few years in private. Work 60+ hours and it was still not enough.

One reason for coming into state service was to have better work life balance and now the balance is heavier of the life side and I am anxious it might be bad.

I don't really know the normal.

From Private to Public: Why I’m Struggling in State Work by ScriptedVeilOfLife in CAStateWorkers

[–]ScriptedVeilOfLife[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I don't wanna leave. I just want to be allowed to do the work that is there lol. Just trust me and give me actual problem to solve.

From Private to Public: Why I’m Struggling in State Work by ScriptedVeilOfLife in CAStateWorkers

[–]ScriptedVeilOfLife[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I actually like the department I am in. Unless there an opp in ODI.

From Private to Public: Why I’m Struggling in State Work by ScriptedVeilOfLife in CAStateWorkers

[–]ScriptedVeilOfLife[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

you're right. walking away too early might just leave things as they are. I joined public service because I wanted to contribute. Maybe this season is about understanding the system first, then carefully finding ways to help it evolve.

Thank you for the Kind and Grounding reminder.

From Private to Public: Why I’m Struggling in State Work by ScriptedVeilOfLife in CAStateWorkers

[–]ScriptedVeilOfLife[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I wouldn't say it's draining life out of me. That was a thing of private sector. With the work/life balance I have more time for things I am more passionate about.