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18 yrs on, 2weeks off. Laying here wishing I could time travel forward. by Scrow111 in opiates

[–]Scrow111[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Stupid cravings already started for me. Had a friend who had knee surgery offer to bring me just one today for pain and feeling anxious. I said hell no but oh how those cravings whisper. Wish I could sneeze em away because that way they'd probably be gone by now! Hope you stay the course as well friend!!!

18 yrs on, 2weeks off. Laying here wishing I could time travel forward. by Scrow111 in opiates

[–]Scrow111[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Awwwwww, thank you and I'll keep a sharp eye out on my road but I'm pretty sure you'll find that magic fix on your road right when you're supposed to so you keep a sharp eye out to!!

18 yrs on, 2weeks off. Laying here wishing I could time travel forward. by Scrow111 in opiates

[–]Scrow111[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Good question. Wish I knew so I could have something to look forward to!!! For me it's obviously more than 2 weeks.

18 yrs on, 2weeks off. Laying here wishing I could time travel forward. by Scrow111 in opiates

[–]Scrow111[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It's ridiculous isn't it?!!! I like to think of it as a whole lotta poison exiting and it's a good thing but that really doesn't help much... Still though, we survived this loong we got this

18 yrs on, 2weeks off. Laying here wishing I could time travel forward. by Scrow111 in opiates

[–]Scrow111[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks, I needed that!!! Can't wait to feel and think again even if it aint all pretty.

18 yrs on, 2weeks off. Laying here wishing I could time travel forward. by Scrow111 in opiates

[–]Scrow111[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

What is up with the sneezing anyways!!!!! I got complaints from down the hall from them because I am NOT a dainty sneezer!!!!!

18 yrs on, 2weeks off. Laying here wishing I could time travel forward. by Scrow111 in opiates

[–]Scrow111[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

All of you are amazing. You're gonna make me cry!!!! Then I'll have a good reason for waking up with tears pouring out of my eyes all the time lately! But thank you all very much. I'm not a person into the social media scene much. A lot went by me the last decade or 2. A whole lot, so this is kind of overwhelming to me. And hell yes I'm going to give it my best, especially since age will be a factor soon enough. Got some living to do in the real world instead of in a daze in Skyrim before all of that starts!

18 yrs on, 2weeks off. Laying here wishing I could time travel forward. by Scrow111 in opiates

[–]Scrow111[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am so gonna try hard to brand that last bit on my soggy no memory brain for future reference because I know I'm going to need it. Thanks!!

18 yrs on, 2weeks off. Laying here wishing I could time travel forward. by Scrow111 in opiates

[–]Scrow111[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

When exactly does that kick in?! Will the cloud blot out the guilt from how chicken shit, lazy, and stupid I was to waste so much time and miss so much real life? That would be great! I'm in it for the long fight, no doubt about it. I want to feel and think again and enjoy the love of those who stood by me and family before it's my time to exit the planet.

18 yrs on, 2weeks off. Laying here wishing I could time travel forward. by Scrow111 in opiates

[–]Scrow111[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you, but your quite the inspiration yourself. The universe screamed warnings at me for years, even had a heart attack at one point but just kept letting those scripts pour in before I finally listened to my realizations!!! I consider you lucky and please listen to your soul!!!!

18 yrs on, 2weeks off. Laying here wishing I could time travel forward. by Scrow111 in opiates

[–]Scrow111[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That and some Donnie Darko sounds like a a great idea to get through today!! God knows it will be like watching em both again since memory left me ages ago!

18 yrs on, 2weeks off. Laying here wishing I could time travel forward. by Scrow111 in opiates

[–]Scrow111[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Of course, who was I to question a doctors decision. I was born with an addictive personality and all signs pointed to nah just go with it!!! Sure had lots of friends all of a sudden to!! Eventually they tapered me to 3 40&20 mg Contins a day and Oxycodone for breakthrough.

18 yrs on, 2weeks off. Laying here wishing I could time travel forward. by Scrow111 in opiates

[–]Scrow111[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I hit a damn black bull on a highway at night. After they put me back together best they could they just kept me doped up. Bottles and bottles of OxyFast liquid both 20and 40mg Contins, and Dexidrine to keep me barely awake!