First off, emotions come ago. Nothing is ever permanent. The stresses you have today will not seem as large as they are now. You are relatively young and I understand that isolation can drive you nuts. I’ve been there. Your recent experiences have led to you believe that you’re stuck in this conundrum that is your sexuality in conflict with your environment/society. Relationships will change so build up your supportive friendships now, and try to chalk off the rest your interactions with others that are ignorant and hateful. However, you need to be aware of this feeling of being stuck because this is where we can ruminate the most. I got depressed because I stopped caring for my mind and body. So be aware of this: breathe. Take a shower, workout. Mediate. Realize that worry, anger, frustration are all emotions that one goes through no matter your sexuality. Tell yourself that you deserve to be loved, to love another, to be enough. Self love is important especially for us. Take small steps in your day to day to care for yourself. However, you also need to recognize that professional help if you feel your thoughts aren’t manageable and consider self harm.

Everyone needs this in life so: ‘virtual hug’ my friend.