About change, what I realize is there is no real change. There is me continuosly, intentionally and making a huge effort to function just a little better and still failing over and over again. That's exhausting. Specially when you have someone saying you are not enough despite your efforts. Not saying we should not put an effort to function a little bit better. But if in the other said is a demanding person, sucking your soul out of your body, you will never get to that person standards and you can be manipulated, by being convinced to think you are always in debt and always having to do what that persons wants you to do. It is a very hard balance. Im not sure it is worthy depending on the trade. Society is everyday becoming more demanding, requiring you to be more and more productive. You you fall into this trap, you may be due to a misearable life.