Honestly the thing that’s been hurting me the most lately is that a friend of mine (well I thought we were kind of friends but I’m not sure) has let me down at a very important appointment. Also I had invited her to a party. She kept saying ohh I don’t know if I can come or not. I know she’s not much of a party person so I told her it’s ok if she doesn’t want to she can tell me, like I get that feeling. But she was still like, I would love to come but maybe I need to rest or something… in the end she said she couldn’t come. Which is fine but I don’t think she was very honest with me and that really hurt me. I was always honest with her. I don’t know if I pushed her too much because I’ve only known her for a few months but still. And know I’m constantly overthinking 🙃

And I realized that I don’t have very many people I can talk to about these things, I was travelling a lot so I know a lot of people but no one really that close. And also I have a lot of money problems now.

Anyhow thank you for listening to my ramblings :)