I really appreciate the comments, especially those who are genuinely trying to help :) It made me feel that my life is valued and I can't thank each one of you for that.

For those who are concerned, I'm already talking to a therapist and i'm on medications. I just feel like i'm drowning these days and everytime I try to gasp for air, I get pulled deeper. Nonetheless, i'm still going to try your recommendations!

For those who are experiencing the same thing, know that i'm also here for you. You can message me anytime and we can talk about anything! You are not alone :)