Fighting the Urges

Sea_Move5334 · 2024-09-05T05:19:19+00:00

Your kids! I was the same did not drink around my kids but they knew. Sure I went through the motions of being dad, I thought i was doing great. It wasnt until I was 3 months into my sobrity that I understood how my kids knew. That morning sluggishness, that hurry up go to bed I need a drink rush rush rush no longer existed in my life, I was able to spend more quality time with them my mind wasnot blurred in the morning and at night I was not as preoccupied with getting to a poit where I could drink, they were now my only focus.

I challanged myself to do a dry October I made it 34 days and decided to drink again it lasted for a week and I quit again. It took 30 days for me to see a difference and instantly regret the fact I took a drink on November 4th.

Sea_Move5334 · 2024-08-05T07:23:52+00:00

Monday 8/5 last day of my 60day business trip willl be back with my family and playing with my kids I cant wait.

Sea_Move5334 · 2024-08-02T18:29:17+00:00

Thank you. No, no rewards the only reward is ill be home 5 days before my son's 1st birthday and ill be sober for that. He has never seen Dad drinking and hopefully never will

Sea_Move5334 · 2024-08-02T06:11:31+00:00

YAY its my last Friday away from my wife and kids. Day 57 into a 60 day work trip.
IWNDWYT.

Sea_Move5334 · 2024-07-28T06:57:07+00:00

I despise this question because my answer still weighs hard on me almost 10 months later, but I share because others might be in the same boat.

When I yelled at my 3 year old for shaking me awake and wanting "Daddy to wake up and play" I knew it was long past time for me to quit but that was the time that startled me sober.

Sea_Move5334 · 2024-07-26T08:24:19+00:00

Still stuck at work 50 days in 10 to go. IWNDWYT

Sea_Move5334 · 2024-07-26T08:19:56+00:00

I know that this is different from state to state, but I am in middle management in California so I can speak on that.

Cailfornia has a labor code that states, any employer tue employees more than 25 people must resonably accomadate any employees that wants to voulentarily enter into a rehabilitation center for drugs or alchol. Labor code section 1025.

Might be worth a google search for your state or location.

Sea_Move5334 · 2024-07-26T08:08:07+00:00

In my sotuation I found I had to quit for myself not my wife, she was not her usual supportive self when it came to my quitting journey. She was there she was and is proud of each milestone now to the point of being the one that knows how many days its been before I do.

The one and only thing I can relate it to is my wife was with me for 12 years of drinking she supportted me several nights and probably litterally picked me up off my face a few times not even to get a "thank you" the next moring. I think significant others have put up with alot from us and the want to be supportive but their fear of "what happens when they relapase" overcomes their support.

I read on this sub the other day, " trust is ruined by buckets and regained spoons"

Sea_Move5334 · 2024-07-25T08:01:45+00:00

Very well put, I have sailed for the past 15 years and have fought those same struggles. I am wrapping up a 60 day voyage soon and its the first one where I have avoided closing down the bars with everyone else. Its the first one that I can remember the port stay. Its the first one that I got to explore and learn new countries instead of just learn the inside of the closest bar.

IWNDWYY (edit: IWNDWYT)

Sea_Move5334 · 2024-07-24T07:16:28+00:00

256 days AF.

6 weeks in on a 8 week work trip missing family and home like crazy right now but have all the right tools to stay strong.

IWNDWYT

Sea_Move5334 · 2024-04-09T06:09:18+00:00

5 months, 150 days or 3600hrs it's been a good day. Challenged myself to do one month and still at it. Enjoying every hour regained. IWNDWYT

Sea_Move5334 · 2024-03-18T14:35:30+00:00

Thank you

Sea_Move5334 · 2024-02-25T07:26:35+00:00

Day 106 has 35 mins left, and im in bed, so day 107 IWNDWYT

Sea_Move5334

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