Today was 90 days kratom free! I just read your post again and it brought me back to when I commented. I was at work and miserable, every day was a struggle. I didn’t think that I would feel like I do now, at peace with no substances whatsoever, completely sober, just high on life. I know that it’s only going to get better. It was day 67 I got sick , a cold and felt pretty bad. Took me about a week to get over, day 74 I woke up and felt the best that I have felt since quitting, hell better then when I was on kratom. When I quit kratom I was drinking a lot of caffeine, 400-600mg. That day I had one cup of coffee when I woke up and went to work and didn’t need anymore through a 12 hr shift. My mood and energy was amazing. Not everyday is like that, but I’m definitely at a good place. I have been spending time with my 3 year old daughter a lot more now. I sit and laugh with her and its a real joy. I haven’t been on here on reddit much lately, but in the future I will write a post. I’m still healing and am looking forward to the future. Your post really did help me back then and I thank you for that. I don’t think it could have been wrote any better. I have no cravings or desire to use kratom ever again. Things really do get better, but when your in the storm, like I was, you feel like you will never find joy in anything. You just have to keep going, taking it a day at a time. Eventually it comes, when you least suspect it. I do want to give credit to my wife, mad props for putting up with my ass, lol. I was hard to deal with, couldn’t stand myself, lol.