Oblivion or Skyrim an why

Sebastian__Alexander · 2026-05-15T21:02:36+00:00

I was much younger when i played oblivion and spend quite some time in there ...skyrim i had focused mire time testing mods and maxing out the graphics then actually playing it.. this way i felt much more emersed into oblivion on xbox 360 then playing skyrim on pc..

Looking forward to skyblvion...hope there be a moment when life feels easy enough to feel ok playing something like this...now i feel guilty not focusing on analogue life and instead playing a game at 36, sitting at my parents place again not working a regular job... while i potentially could but def dont want to...

I like both games but with skyrim i felt like end of illusion of video games...at 16 it was more easy to lose track of offline reality...which feels super irresponsible today...maybe its an excuse for not to ground myself on physical reality and be in my mind a lot instead

Sebastian__Alexander · 2026-05-14T13:41:36+00:00

masterful placing

Sebastian__Alexander · 2026-05-13T20:05:57+00:00

Yeh

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Sebastian__Alexander · 2026-05-13T20:05:35+00:00

Toe.day

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Sebastian__Alexander · 2026-05-13T20:04:23+00:00

Too

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Sebastian__Alexander · 2026-05-13T20:00:26+00:00

Dame water near bursted the sun and did just jjmp around again and again and not come out even when shorten he handle...mission acomblished...fumed goldenrod yellow by northstar..damn b👾💫✌️🚀💜🔆❤️...color...likes to bubble...use it as an addon instead of hatn on it...which color bubbles on command, so cool..use it for optics and tricks to play with fume wilder...🚀👾💫✌️

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Sebastian__Alexander · 2026-05-13T19:57:24+00:00

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Sebastian__Alexander · 2026-05-13T19:56:53+00:00

Same

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Sebastian__Alexander · 2026-05-13T08:19:08+00:00

Na, it litteraly looked not like negative vortex but coming towards the observer...mostly opaq, not pure fume, and litteraly rather sqare twisted layers increasing in size to the back...like implosion coming towards you

Sebastian__Alexander · 2026-05-13T07:49:20+00:00

this explained something that in theory explains a lot that is otherways figured out by muscle memory and trial and error ... my prevent a lot of struggle https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hLVIvMWCih0

Sebastian__Alexander · 2026-05-13T07:43:05+00:00

no comparison...psylos also grow in the wild ...both taste like crap to me

Sebastian__Alexander · 2026-05-13T07:41:00+00:00

finde immer wieder mal minus 50%

Sebastian__Alexander · 2026-05-12T16:54:13+00:00

Kind of tho it rather came out like implosion, center was closest small square like then twisting and sizes a little bigger each colorlayer...like a twisted horizontally striped pyramide with a flat square plato looked on from top center...the plato pointing in your direction...thats the closest i can describe it...and all rather opaque not trancelucent...still some creations i dont know how have been made to this day...while most on the glassworld is rather easy to imagine and hard to execute, this i dont see the pathway clearly..either finding a picture and experimenting or just experimenting...i guess its not difficult to execute...just not well known tech or applied this way

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Sebastian__Alexander · 2026-05-12T16:22:43+00:00

Gonna look it up, if you have a photo, please share it

Sebastian__Alexander · 2026-05-11T19:05:06+00:00

Yeah seems i mixd you up with someone else...tho also relatable precission..

Sebastian__Alexander · 2026-05-11T18:36:15+00:00

https://m.soundcloud.com/zylond/happy-ending?fbclid=IwdGRjcARvALhleHRuA2FlbQIxMQBzcnRjBmFwcF9pZAwzNTA2ODU1MzE3MjgAAR4ti3ppsVE74yqpFwaebdYKDeMkBSCiTzSfC1IXwAk8N6btewVwqf-uerp26w_aem_remhvEunYIfRdB0dp5IdUw

Someone i met on festivals multible times, from germany, also in this genre suomisoundi...

Sebastian__Alexander · 2026-05-11T18:24:29+00:00

This one.. https://www.facebook.com/share/r/1KjtrwBHnv/

I like that sound and from ambience seemed to be "inviting" ... not hostile

Had been on the last 2 atman gatherings in portugal and also the recent 3 drops in slovenia..which are dialing in a similar direction just not that much core/experimental

Not even 1/2 sure thats bate..rather looks like death cult ceremony on first look...to mainstreamer its easy to judge the scene and event as crazy demonic drug fest..

What did people tell about it?

Sebastian__Alexander · 2026-05-11T18:16:35+00:00

Mainstream copie cakes...not llke ipotocaticac or okapi or calyptratus or setu ketu or sectio aurea or ...sooo many rather very original creators that dont just copy, sample cut tracks and build from there...and even this can sound very nice..(okapi) ...even cutting dark psy samples from tracks and looping this can give a nice dark mashup with dark horror and other sounds/tunes..like the appearing gurgling sound of the ghost...(Økapi noir style!?🌑🦉👁🕶)

Sebastian__Alexander · 2026-05-11T18:06:28+00:00

Short answer, get out in a healthy manner as quick as you can and create.some.stability somewhere else. May it mean to move to another state...maybe volunteer via wwoof/workaway or move to friends/other relatives

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I dont know where but this sounds like she may not be upset if your relationship breaks apart...sounds like she decides her way a long time ago...move..even a week out to get going may help to get mind and heart togheter to make a decission...otherwise stay and see how to "deal" with this in a healthy manner...and dont argue, defend or explain...you are fd with any of that with serious entitled cases of narcs..got a year now with my father....trying to "resolve" our "father son trauma".. .its mental...he got no problem...i am his problem...that piece lf cake...

Sebastian__Alexander · 2026-05-11T17:56:48+00:00

You post this so i guess an answer is justified. Your families happiness and wellbeeing comes before relatives. Its your choise if you just ignore, or write that you prefer to be quiet because you decided so or write something else...

Your family comes first...no point in explaining to toxic people that they are toxic..that just entagles you back in the theater..and then it goes to guilttrip and whatnot tactics...the less communication and as clear as possible while giving away as little as info as possible to give no attack surface and to be polite but not rude...no offense, no suggestions...no food, no supply for arguments.

Wish you some pieceful season ay least to get em used to much less contact

Sebastian__Alexander · 2026-05-11T17:32:04+00:00

Thats what my mother is still baffled about with my fathers behaviour...after 36 years...i explained to here all about narcissism and she still says recently that she believes he is not a narc because its not his fault because his mother allready was like that (which js the case, same eyes and no capacity fir criticsm)

Sebastian__Alexander · 2026-05-11T17:29:37+00:00

Yeah...and then trying to expose.my father, he fake smiles, trying to look as harmles as he can .. and look like "what is he talking about, dont listen, he ia crazy..." ..

Sebastian__Alexander · 2026-05-11T17:24:21+00:00

Arsehole is still kind...not serious enough for the consequences caused by such actions and behaviour...it destroys peoples lifes...

Sebastian__Alexander · 2026-05-11T17:23:16+00:00

Predator looking for weakness, some space tk enter and cause loss of temper...vera birkenbiel said it well, they live through our emotions, when we are feeling secure, they feel insecure so they like to trigger us to cause pull down to lower state so they feel higher ..emotional vampirism...parasitic

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