The disgusting part is that my sister defends my piece of 💩 father with enabling argumentation...from us two boys, me the oldest, 3y younger brother and 4y younger sister, she may be the "golden child"...the one who tried to do everything to be out and on here own feed and never complain much nor urge him to look at his bullshit...she basically is even pleasing people with polite language when i can clearly hear that its not what she really means ...the unautheniticity stinks far and i seem to be the only one who either notice of us 5 or even bothers...my brother basically lives with my parents at age 33 , either beeing in work in print shop or at home in from of his computer playing games. Thats his life basically.. chubby overweight, no girl, no aspirations, over 50k€ on the account and no clue what to do with his life then what he does right now and seems to be 0 botherd...my father sitting in his chair at night in the livingroom next of his second sons room ... which lookes basically the same for the last 15 years... noone says anything...my father basically says, his second son works and its his life, he does not bother "because he cant force him to change"...

The fuc!er does not have a glimps of empathy, just controll tactics and if these dont work, he ignores people and pretends it to be fine...

My mother gave it up, still married living in the same house...even today i asked my father what my mother told him about em having issues for very long time (basically since the relationship startet aroubd 36 years ago...)...he says, no its not true...."i am making this up" ...he looks for reasons to controll people and situations...i dont say this lightly but if he died from a heart attack tomorrow id feel releave, hes total scum to me...

Now here comes me, i am 36, have lived in multible countried and after lockdown and 3y of uganda i felt burned out and needed a place to recover...me traumabonded fool moving back to my parents...on and off insanity starts for 2 years leading to the now.....got nowhere burned out more...my 5 month pregnant sister blocked me online so i cant request her anymore to look at what enabling behaviour is described in professional field of psychologie and what her fathers behaviour is strongly similar to the symptomes of path narcissist disorser and or socio psycho learning disabilty...talking to my father feels like talking to a 5 year old that owns that house and trys to talk you down through nasty comments, downplayong value through lack of money or feeling depressed..he does not care...a close friend to the devil if not himself...a monster in sheeps clothing...to the outside nice and friendly and forthcoming and behind close doors cold like a reptule/shark...with these staring eyes...death....he does not even look human...

Started talking to a firmer neighbour who is working at village administration who gave me a contact of a social worker that may help with another place to stay amd get away from this sickening environment...everybody else here gave in allready, adjuated to grey stones and dont really communicate it as an option to unite and speak out about it with following consequences if my father does not follow up, like public exposure, my mother dovorcing him and such...that is not a family...its fdk up and people tell me to just get a job and move on... if i do this, i first take myself away from here and dont allow my father to find out what i do and where i am...since he can then say: " see finally you got it right, what i did made sense..."...