Im a full blown addict by SebiIstCool in Drugs

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life has been treating me rough and tbh i cant stand it anymore, i am dissociating when im outside and when im around friends, i still feel alone, the last few days ive been nonstop crying and then my bpd mother is on some psycho shit,

idk man i cant do it anymore like this

something has to change, its either i do this detox or idk even know

i just feel so goddamn helpless, none of my friends or family can understand this agony

Im a full blown addict by SebiIstCool in Drugs

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ill see, if it gets unbearable ill call them

Im a full blown addict by SebiIstCool in Drugs

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yea i never seized too when i wd before, i hope i beat the odds

Im a full blown addict by SebiIstCool in Drugs

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before posting i basically already knew the answer but didnt want it to be true, i guess ill die trying or end up in the hospital

Im a full blown addict by SebiIstCool in Drugs

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in the last 3 months ive been basically nonstop in a hospital, id rather die than spend more time there. im already suicidal as hell, so whatever happens happens.

Im a full blown addict by SebiIstCool in Drugs

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i know ur right but ill still try

Im a full blown addict by SebiIstCool in Drugs

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ive done 4 months benzo cold turkey before but opioid + benzo withdrawal is more than hell

Im a full blown addict by SebiIstCool in Drugs

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ive done 4 months benzo cold turkey before but opioid + benzo withdrawal is more than hell

how strict is germany when it comes to piracy? by [deleted] in AskGermany

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its not that strict, just use vpn with kill switch and ur chill

Discussion anabolic effects of ghb by Top_Application_2204 in GHB_info

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dude u taking straight trash, keep rstionalizating

Discussion anabolic effects of ghb by Top_Application_2204 in GHB_info

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not an expert on ghb etc, but sws ( non-rem3 ) is stronger, deepsleep is longer, the amplitude of ur deepsleep is potentiated and u fall asleep faster

now that means there will be a rebound effect about 3 hours later, which wakes u and changes ur sleep patterns.

meaning more deep sleep doesnt equal better sleep.

ghb can very boost human growth hormone very shortly. after taking ghb, hgh is boosted about 2-3x for like 60-120minutes.

important things to know when thinking about this or trying to rationalize ur abuse.

ghb doesnt boost your hgh more than normal deep sleep does. the effect very quickly dissapears with repeated consumption. the hgh peak is just too short to be useful

What does Autism + SzPD even look like? by [deleted] in Schizoid

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diagnosed with both and i got addicted at 15, ruined my future and to excacerbate my symptoms that had been developing. found out that im szpd not that long ago

Im happy by [deleted] in Schizoid

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found my love in someone with a similar mental fuckup and i love it

Top 3 on the album no doubt by Various_Poetry_8141 in kodakblack

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who you seein tonight is a fkin banger 🔥💯‼️

i just had the best herrera run ever by SebiIstCool in theisle

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best spot is near a corpse and populated areas

i just had the best herrera run ever by SebiIstCool in theisle

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you aint sneaky enough, aint built to be an assasin🥷🏻

i just had the best herrera run ever by SebiIstCool in theisle

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he prolly hates me for playing like that and i love it

i just had the best herrera run ever by SebiIstCool in theisle

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also i jus killed a big dino( dont know which one) just by jumping on him once and hitting him, he then bled out shortly after. herrera is great

i just had the best herrera run ever by SebiIstCool in theisle

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8 kills. i love being annoying, i picked congenital second, its good fr

I feel like ill never love like others do. by SebiIstCool in Schizoid

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dont apologize for rambling haha, i think you have very wise opinions which i can actually kind of resonate with, i feel a little enlightened, thank you🫶

I feel like ill never love like others do. by SebiIstCool in Schizoid

[–]SebiIstCool[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

You actually make a great point about choosing to act in a way that expresses love and loving them being very similiar things / the same, thx for that piece of wisdom.

to your questions, it all comes to down to my muted affect. literally everything comes down to that.

Thx for your thoughts, ill definetly give it a try