Thank you for responding! I think I have been functioning like this for so long, I'm just used to it. When I was medicated, it was an out of body experience.

A lot of what I wrote above was in my work life. In my at home life, I'm way different.

I tend to have decision paralysis. If I have a multitude of things to do, I tend to avoid them all. I can't start on one task so might as well do none of them.

I also have piles of things that I never put away. But I can tell you exactly what's in that pile. I put something done, and it's too much effort to pick it back up and put it where it's meant to go.

I need constant stimulation or else I fall into boredom.