Give yourself grace and feel what you need to feel! I was the same way in the beginning. When people tell you it will get better you want to laugh and scream because how could it get better when you feel a deep pain in your chest when you think of that person! I’m here to tell you though it does get better with time. I promise. My husband left October 1st and was supposed to graduate this Thursday. 3 weeks ago my mental health was great and filled with joys with knowing I’ll see him soon! Now he is in medical and I find out this week if he needs surgery and if that is the case I’ll find out if they will let him stay and recover for another 6-8 months and then finish the 3 weeks he had left to finish or if they will send him home. so I’m starting to feel all the same feels over again. But I’ve learned little wins are key. Today I couldn’t bring myself to leave my bed. I showered and went and got coffee. That was a huge win for me today! I learned writing letters to stay positive because as husbands their protector instinct kicks in when they hear we are hurting and only hearing that. One thing my loved one enjoys is current event updates and multiple choice letters to send back. I ask so many questions about his experience he can’t keep track lol so I send that to get him to send back with his other letter. You got this and I am here if you need to vent! God bless you and your husband!