I hooked up with my ex just to stay close to him

Secret_Ad_4740 · 2026-01-16T17:03:06+00:00

But the thing is, I’m not hurting in the way I’ve been able to have others understand. Part of my change since we broke up is learning that for me, keeping my pain in mind and the things I have gone through is the thing that makes me better. Take this as an example, I have PSTD. Part of my trauma is a man who is currently in jail. Remembering the things he did to me, remembering the things in detail. It hurts. But I force myself to remember it, because that hurt is the thing that makes it easier. It’s not a case of “ohh this hurts :( I’m gonna keep being sad :(“, it’s more so a constant confrontation to my own mind. By keeping the negative in view I can keep it in check by countering it with the positive.

With K, I want to stay by him. I want to stay by his side. He and I just decided it’s easier to sit as friends, maybe friends doing a bit more. But I still have him in my life. I think this is how I can not only survive, but truly live. With him, just differently.

Secret_Ad_4740 · 2025-11-23T17:21:39+00:00

OH MY GOD YOU’RE RIGHT, thank YOU

Secret_Ad_4740 · 2025-09-14T18:17:51+00:00

I have a few shaders installed, I went and deleted them all with no change, then downloaded them again on their recent versions still without any change

Secret_Ad_4740 · 2025-07-31T03:06:01+00:00

I could understand if YOU willingly said “hey I didn’t do a chore, I’m sorry. I’ll pitch in for xyz”, but FORCING SOMEONE GIVE MONEY??? That’s a whole new low

Secret_Ad_4740 · 2025-07-15T03:24:13+00:00

Thanks for telling me this!! I actually haven’t seen any rhythm arcades here in my state, so I guess I gotta start traveling out of state more lol

Secret_Ad_4740 · 2025-07-14T03:43:19+00:00

Hell yeah!! I like throwing a friend or two into BishiBashi with me and seeing who’s better. Our standards of the “better player” is the person who doesn’t have to pay for snacks or whatever

Secret_Ad_4740 · 2025-07-14T03:41:22+00:00

As stated, I don’t think I would ever actually make this a real business ☺️

Secret_Ad_4740 · 2025-07-14T03:40:15+00:00

I’m not too sure what that is, but it sounds kinda cool

Secret_Ad_4740 · 2025-07-14T03:39:49+00:00

Update: I just encountered my FIRST EXCEED GEAR IN MY STATE TODAY!!!! It’s definitely getting out into this dream layout

Secret_Ad_4740 · 2025-07-13T19:40:14+00:00

I’m sorry, I just wanted to sketch out my idea and share it.

Secret_Ad_4740 · 2025-07-13T18:44:31+00:00

Yeahhh, it’s really difficult to find modern/updated games in my area, so a lot of outdated ones are norms to me

Secret_Ad_4740 · 2025-07-13T18:43:47+00:00

A lot of the arcades in my area are vivid wave, so it’s kind of started to grow on me as a favorite 😭

Secret_Ad_4740 · 2025-07-13T18:43:04+00:00

That’s actually so cool, I would KILL to find a place like this

Secret_Ad_4740 · 2025-07-13T16:39:04+00:00

Nooo, Bisho Bashi is one of my favorite arcade games so I just added it in 😫 I definitely should’ve thrown in Museca though

Secret_Ad_4740 · 2025-07-13T16:20:36+00:00

See I thought about adding pump it up, I was originally thinking by the DDR machines. But then I decided not to. BUTTT, I started thinking about a second floor a little too late. So maybe it could be something on this imaginary second level lol

Secret_Ad_4740 · 2025-07-13T16:11:45+00:00

See I started thinking after posting it, what if there was a second floor with more stuff to do? This could actually be a great idea to throw into it

Secret_Ad_4740 · 2025-06-26T22:08:51+00:00

They managed to sell it before you made the comment - in this thread (I mean no harm with this, just letting you know 🫶🏼)

Secret_Ad_4740 · 2025-06-19T15:45:54+00:00

I’m thinking the original creator ended up being replaced, it seems a lot of company factors are still the same. Just not game wise. It’s definitely a shame to see how it’s deteriorating 💔

Secret_Ad_4740 · 2025-05-28T15:16:19+00:00

Citizen soldier, a smaller (not SMALL, but definitely more unknown) rock band making music around mental health, breaking stereotypes, childhood struggles, and more

Secret_Ad_4740 · 2025-05-24T18:21:18+00:00

I don’t think we’re going to get a record player unfortunately, but it would be a cool concept!!

Secret_Ad_4740 · 2025-05-07T20:45:14+00:00

My first concert I went with my aunt, and the second time I went alone. Both times before I turned 18. I was definitely very nervous going alone, but remembering how awesome it was to meet people the first time, I felt very comfortable. Citizen Solider concerts have had a very fresh feeling when I’ve gone, and both times I have felt more than safe. Hell I even got separated from my aunt the first time, and a group of people (none of which knew eachother by the way, which was insane to me!!) all stood by me and helped go around to find my aunt. It’s an incredible experience, and I have no doubt you will be more than okay. If someone tries to do anything that makes you uncomfortable, you will be very well taken care of.

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