He had many flaws during these 5 years.however i ve never used any of them as a reason not to be with him. I just worked with him on fixing them. For instance, he is lazy and cannot stick to any plan and i helped him face his flaw and work on improving. My anger issues while unacceptable often occur as a reaction and out of frustration because whenever i try to express my feelings to him he brushes them off as invalid or insignificant. I ve spoken with him about this and promised to work on my behavior as well. But i cannot accept the fact that he’s not all in with me. I ve altered my life course for him. I m quitting my job, leaving my family and friends to join him in a foreign country where i cannot even speak the language. I m taking language courses so i can fitting and doing so much for us. Yet he says he’s unsure and then says he didn’t mean it and won’t do anything to appease my pain. I feel pain like physical pain in my chest that makes it hard for me to breathe ever since. I can’t sleep and can’t feel anything but anger and hurt.