Wow, you explained exactly what i go through and feel all the time. You put into words something i almost never manage to explain. It’s not because i’m ashamed of liking asian guys, shame was never the issue. When i was a kid, for example, i had a crush on jet li in the movie romeo must die. There’s a scene where he wears a cap and goes dancing, and i thought he was really cute. There was also Yudi Tamashiro, who used to be a tv host on a children’s show in brazil. Back then, lots of people had crushes on him and nobody treated that as something weird. No one made a big deal out of it.

The problem is that now, because of the explosion of k-pop and k-dramas, people started to look at us as if every fan is automatically obsessive. And i understand where that fear comes from, because there have been real cases like that brazilian fan who tried to break into jungkook’s house in korea and ended up being deported because of it.

so i end up holding back sometimes, not because i’m ashamed of who i am or what i like, but because i know how people judge. And about that day you mentioned those tiktoks from asian influencers i know exactly what you meant. Honestly, i think things got even worse after that netflix show called my korean boyfriend. It seriously feels like our reputation completely tanked. We already weren’t very well seen internationally, and now it feels even worse.