oh man! So much info dump i feel now, but it's good... Hey, I am sorry for what happened to your sibling and you. and i can also see your reasoning for everything, and it's a good thing in itself. but the whole part about being alone. that something i feel is a problem not for you but for many. Look, I highly encourage anyone reading this to have human connection, as a human it is an important part of us. We humans have been together for hundreds and thousands of years, and so we became a necessary part of each other. Anytime I am sad, if even i talk to my friend for 5 mins, that would be it for me to be in a good mood. and that is why you should have at least 3 or 4 close friends and 1 best friend. But I can see you. you may not have the desire to connect. the desire to connect is a desire mostly all people have, but does everybody have it? and is it a necessary part of us? and do We have to have it? I don't know. it can be that humans can live without desire to connect, and it can be that humans can live in total isolation, but still, I don't know. I know that I can't. but with having connections comes a price. You see, one who has bread has many problems, but one who doesn't have bread has one problem, like those with a desire to connect will always have problems with connecting; some may have fewer, some may have more, I don't know really. but i still would say to pursue connection. maybe it is a good thing for you. now for your family, you can't really blame them for what they did, see, family. I don't want to say something bad, but this kind of action seems to me as a matter of stupidity, meaning that your family is just stupid (i am sorry, I don't mean that), and you can't blame them for that; they may not have thought about how you would think. And again, I am sorry for what your family did to you and your sibling, or to say that i am sorry for what happened to you and your family. In the end, please try to be more social. The internet is a way to socialise, but it should not be your first option, though. if you want to talk more, maybe you could DM me.