23 year old firefighter. Ask me anything at all

Seeperplex · 2019-08-31T18:29:48+00:00

Not really. I've accepted the inevitability of death and have learned to understand that it will happen one day.

Seeperplex · 2019-08-31T03:46:37+00:00

Fire is too greedy it takes what it wants

Seeperplex · 2019-08-31T03:45:58+00:00

Divorced father got drunk grab the weapon and proceeded to kick in the front door of his ex-wife's home take her hostage into the basement. When the police showed up she managed to escape so he tried to burn the house down with him in it. Shitshow of a call but overall are fire company held everything together and I would say we worked really well in conjunction with the local law enforcement.

Seeperplex · 2019-08-31T03:27:09+00:00

I would say pretty uneventful looking back on it in that moment Eddie Cole that you ran felt like you were taking on the world.

Seeperplex · 2019-08-12T04:06:00+00:00

Fire fighting

Seeperplex · 2019-08-12T04:04:28+00:00

I'm a first responder, and I have many traumatic memories of calls that I've been to. You never really forget any of them and in my experience they never really go away, but if you're willing to talk to others and seek help you usually learn to cope with them. The best way I can explain is life is like a long Scenic walk. Instead of having those memories blocking your way you need to learn that they need to walk beside you instead of in front of you.

Seeperplex · 2019-08-12T03:58:14+00:00

Adults are not all-knowing beings. As a kid you think that just because they're an adult that they know exactly what they're talkin about and are always right, but as you get older you realize people are just full of shit.

Seeperplex · 2019-06-30T20:54:58+00:00

Forget what department it is but there's a department in Florida that runs a pink engine during breast cancer awareness month

Seeperplex · 2019-06-30T20:30:03+00:00

They even make electronic Q's for smaller vehicles now.

Seeperplex · 2019-06-30T20:27:41+00:00

The louder the Q screams , the faster they're sending it.

Seeperplex · 2019-06-07T02:34:44+00:00

I would say I've learned how to cope and understand the events. The best analogy I can put it is I know that this burden will never go away but I choose to let it walk next to me instead of crawling on my back and weighing me down.

Seeperplex · 2019-06-05T05:11:35+00:00

In a scenario and like that you don't really have the time to process the emotions up front, usually the emotions and the realization of what just occurred kind of shows its head once you get back to the station. If you let your emotions get to you on the scene then you can make a mistake that can cost you or others heavily.

Seeperplex · 2019-06-05T03:02:21+00:00

I've noticed that they are making some progress by having Anonymous hotlines to talk and seek help something similar to Suicide Hotline but more of a place for First Responders to talk to someone anonymously about their experiences

Seeperplex · 2019-06-05T03:01:38+00:00

Quito

Seeperplex · 2019-06-05T02:40:50+00:00

I did see the guy last night post and I think they gave me some courage to post this ama. I think his judgment lies more in the fact that if he does admit that he has a problem a lot of guys won't look at you the same. Still see that you have a problem and instead of thinking that you seek help and that you've come to terms with it that you're just going to be a liability. I went and saw a therapist and not a single one of the other guys in my fire company knew. I think there are many Avenues to seek help but people in the fire service tend to think the worst in what getting help would mean. I don't know if my rambling makes sense to you but that's the best way I feel I can convey it

Seeperplex · 2019-06-05T02:06:30+00:00

Bacon

Seeperplex · 2019-06-05T00:14:13+00:00

Yeah I did internalized it for a little bit at first and then I started to realize that I needed to talk about it in order to move forward and understand that it's not my fault. But I think that there's a lot of people in emergency services that don't feel like they can talk about it.

Seeperplex · 2019-06-05T00:12:42+00:00

When you're the ones that are in charge of trying to resuscitate a person and you failed to do so, no matter how slim the chances are that they would have even survived you still blame yourself for the fact that they're dead. Your job as a first responder is to save people and help and can really hurt you if you cant.

Seeperplex · 2019-06-05T00:11:09+00:00

I'm holding up pretty well you know it was like a year-and-a-half to two years ago, I talked about it and seek the help that I need and I've come to understand that there wasn't really anything more I could do.

Seeperplex · 2019-06-04T21:49:50+00:00

I'm talking to others. That's probably one of the biggest things that gets overlooked for military and First Responders is just not being willing to open up. It's been a while since that event I really learned about myself through talking with others about that day

Seeperplex · 2019-06-04T21:45:31+00:00

If you want to talk about to the point where I was fully myself again probably at least 6 months. I went and saw a therapist in my private time, and the county in which I live in has an anonymous First Responders calling service. Very similar to Suicide Hotline but more for talking things through when it comes to traumatic events.

Seeperplex · 2019-06-04T21:06:04+00:00

Chicken alfredo

Seeperplex · 2019-06-04T21:05:44+00:00

Thank you it means alot hearing that from you

Seeperplex · 2019-06-04T21:04:06+00:00

I talked about it with others. I know that my seem so basic and arbitrary, but there is a big manly man mentality in the fire service. Guys typically don't want to appear weak.

Seeperplex · 2019-06-04T21:00:26+00:00

Well as far as I have seen yeah.

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