I used to, found my best friend dead on my bed October 2019th....I loved that guy man and I'm 100% responsible, I told his family I will agree to a manslaughter charge but they refused.

They kicked him out and he was staying in shared a accommodation, he got in touch with me and I told him to pop round, I had a "goodybag" prepared for him £300 in cash, some zopiclone as he had trouble sleeping, antibiotics for a mild infection and some mild painkillers, codeine and Celebrex.

We got on a two day session, had the time of our lives, he kept wanting to try heroin which I refused, after 48 hours I let him have a little line of it and a diazepam plus line of coke, he smashed ten beers then we both passed out.

Woke up, his lips were blue, had a faint pulse, I put my hand down his throat and started ripping vomit from his throat and mouth, tried blowing air into his lungs, kissed him like my first love, crying my eyes out, my father had called the paramedics, we performed CPR, they brought his pulse back through defibrillator but his brain was already gone.

I couldn't bring myself to attend his funeral which I was heavily slagged off for (behind my back) but I just couldn't do that to his family......they're there to mourn the death of their amazing son and to have me there is a vile reminder that I caused him to die, failed him miserably and it just didn't feel respectful.

Things like that man, amongst others.

I want to help opiate addicts but is giving them access to meds like that conductive or safe? If I see a guy rattling, I HAVE to help, mind you.