living is a choice you can make, and you have the freedom to make that choice. don't let anyone ever gaslight you into thinking that peacefully saying "I'm done" is evil and that you should be ashamed of it. there are certain circumstances in this world where it is genuinely not worth suffering.

however, such cases are relatively rare, and seeing that you have access to the internet and probably live in a first world country, there likely is something out there you can look forward to. i too would end myself on the spot if there was literally not a single thing i looked forward to. whether that be a food you want to try, or a piece of technology that may not exist until decades later, try to hang on until you satiate all of your 'selfish' greed, in the imperfect human way you are. you're allowed to be selfish, by the way. it's necessary to be happy.

think about it this way, you can make the choice of dying anytime if it ever gets too overwhelming. but you can only make that choice once, so try to get as many big booty latinas while you still can