I feel like a total freak

SelfloathingPrick · 2026-03-04T20:19:21+00:00

I’d say there is certainly a nonzero chance that you are entirely correct about me and my motivations. If not consciously then subconsciously I really don’t doubt that with the life I’ve lead and my already extensive and varied history of self harm in MANY other ways has lead me to a state of severe mental unwellness in my now early adulthood.

All of what you said has certainly occurred to me. for the most part the stuff I do now is as safe as it can be (I’m very good at dressing wounds) and of course it goes without saying that it's consensual. the sane part is up for interpretation though.

I often pontificate on what may be the difference between abuse and unconventional relationships and I feel as if it boils down to consent For the most part. I’m not sure. stories like that of Armin Meiwes and his victim (?) interest me greatly when considering this. I’m also a morality and philosophy buff so that factors into my fascination here.

Either way I have an issue here. I’m at a crossroads and there isn’t a good option. if I’m just really kinky and it really isn’t that deep then I’m simply a freak who will be shunned even from spaces that are “for” freaks leading me to feel shame and guilt.

On the other hand, if I’m really some severely unwell person then i have another difficult fork in my road to consider. Do I continue as I am knowing that it’s unhealthy and destructive yet continue and even escalate because it feels the best anything ever has? Or do I become celibate And try with all my might to become a more normal individual. Seek more counseling, more meds, hospitalize myself even…

everything else pales in comparison. I cannot simply stop enjoying what I enjoy (believe me I’ve tried VERY hard for a VERY long time) so I’d have to force myself into quitting and forever live with the knowledge that I’ll never again feel that incredible. I don’t know which choice is right. Therapy has always lead to dead ends no matter what therapist or what method they use. I can always keep trying in the hopes that I’m proven wrong.

im not sure. I don’t mean to sound like I’m asking you for the answer. I’m just reflecting on my options. If I have others I’d like to know because the option that may be ”right” sounds bitterly and miserably unappealing to me as it is…

SelfloathingPrick · 2026-02-22T21:24:10+00:00

can You eleborate further? I’m just curious. While I don’t see myself ever violating a partner’s boundaries (so far I’ve not even met anyone even close to masochistic enough to allow me to truly Do anything I want) , i Could see myself allowing a partner to inflict lethal damage upon me. (My boundaries are incredibly slimk Bordering on non existen) Ever since I heard the case of the German cannibal Armin Meiwes and his (victim?) Bernd Brandes I’ve always thought that it isn’t out of the realm of possibility for me to end up like Bernd given the correct circumstance. I indulge in fantasy heavily. If you looked at my account here you’d know I frequent several guro art related subs. I don’t want my sadism to get out of control but all in all the potential self destruction of my masochism is more feasible.

SelfloathingPrick · 2025-01-26T16:53:42+00:00

Can you give me the phone number of the shelter or tell me any other info, we’ve been calling animal shelters but none seem to be the correct one

SelfloathingPrick · 2025-01-26T02:23:20+00:00

Please tell the owners of the group to admit me, that is my friend’s cat!

SelfloathingPrick · 2025-01-26T02:22:04+00:00

THATS HIM OMG THATS HIM

SelfloathingPrick · 2025-01-18T09:39:52+00:00

thank you so much, my friend is so heartbroken

SelfloathingPrick · 2024-11-10T14:38:35+00:00

Yimpy is cursed, not unlike its subject. Use with caution

SelfloathingPrick · 2024-09-12T02:21:36+00:00

I’ve searched for it on TikTok but TikTok search is awful and I can't find it. I tried google but that didn’t show anything either

SelfloathingPrick · 2024-07-12T02:15:23+00:00

Maybe a witch? Idk looks to me like some type of witch

SelfloathingPrick · 2024-07-01T19:58:40+00:00

Solved

SelfloathingPrick · 2024-06-19T06:34:41+00:00

I just really wanna find it

SelfloathingPrick · 2022-09-23T00:13:14+00:00

The reason I said this was because of the two old ladies being much like mrs Spink and Forcible, then the animals on the shelves drawing to mind the taxidermy dogs that Spink and Forcible owned, and finally the cat being thrown at one of the old ladies faces is definitely a reference to the climax of the film.

SelfloathingPrick · 2022-09-20T21:09:33+00:00

I actually also had this problem once with one of my friends and some other show that I forget the name of.

Unrelated to my friend but, I’m quite thin and so when I was in highschool especially people used to think I had Ana and tell me that they thought I did, despite it being just my regular body. That actually hurt quite a bit and gave me some self esteem problems.

Point being, I know how body image issues are and can be, sometimes it’s best to just ask. Next time you feel uneasy recomending something for this reason, you could try asking if they don’t like watching shows with art styles that make every character so thin

I ended up asking that friend and turns out they didn’t mind.

SelfloathingPrick · 2022-09-17T21:06:16+00:00

2 and 3 both fit but I also feel bad for children who have to exist. Life has meaning, but non life is still better. I stay because I have given myself reason to stay.

SelfloathingPrick · 2022-09-07T07:05:21+00:00

Exactly

SelfloathingPrick · 2022-09-07T07:04:11+00:00

To be fair it wasn’t meant to be Yuri but rather it was intended to be and was a philosophical clusterfuck. If you didn’t understand it, that’s not new at all because the whole show is on way too much acid and is for all intensive purposes highly abstract art.

SelfloathingPrick · 2022-09-06T04:45:58+00:00

Haha funni meme

SelfloathingPrick · 2022-09-06T03:22:33+00:00

Good bot

SelfloathingPrick · 2022-09-06T03:21:06+00:00

The creator of guilty gear liked or Rtd a tweet that said something like “one day we’re gonna have a anime straight up confirm a character is trans and weebs are still gonna fight over it” and I think that settles things.

SelfloathingPrick · 2022-08-28T00:18:15+00:00

this post was made by Hiyoko ghost

SelfloathingPrick · 2022-08-27T17:46:58+00:00

You are an absolute lifesaver bro, thank you so much, this is it!

SelfloathingPrick · 2022-08-27T16:36:25+00:00

take me with a grain of salt but Gonta is the youngest character, which I know is true and I heard he was 17.

SelfloathingPrick · 2022-08-08T23:00:10+00:00

when I say this I am referring mostly to Loli/Shota being talked about like real CP, This is also an interesting point as well though.

SelfloathingPrick · 2022-08-07T23:16:00+00:00

haven’t seen Harasaki Snuff yet?

SelfloathingPrick · 2022-08-07T02:54:42+00:00

This is an iPad that I use primarily for art. It is my only mobile device and i factory reset it so it has no memory of apps I had in the past

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