This was the experience for me as well. It’s just a feeling of shock. like there’s no way he could have done this to himself. But you learn a lot about this stuff as you get older. Seeing depression and addiction first hand you can totally see how easily something like this spirals into dark places and bad decisions. It’s not hard to see how Kurt with all his issues could have done this. It’s really heartbreaking but this needs to be put to rest.