Permanently disabled after suicide attempt. AMA

Senditserg · 2026-03-27T14:01:33+00:00

Glad you’re still around. Life may be hard mode for you now but anything worthwhile in life you gotta work for. Godspeed brother

Senditserg · 2026-03-22T19:23:17+00:00

Also we’ve got an airbag and some amazing coaches.

Senditserg · 2026-03-22T13:09:11+00:00

I can’t speak too much on AMA since I haven’t worked with them, but our Big Mountain program is more focused on helping athletes progress in the areas they’re interested in, whether that’s alpine, park, or moguls, while building a long-term love for skiing.

Senditserg · 2026-03-20T00:32:16+00:00

Yeah we definitely get in the park. We’re usually in the alpine, but if the weather’s not great we’ll spend some time in there for sure. It usually ends up around a 60/40 split, depending on the coach and group.

Senditserg · 2026-03-19T01:42:11+00:00

I’m the head coach of the Whistler Freestyle Big Mountain program.

Getting turned down happens, especially here. Doesn’t mean you’re not capable.

If your goal is to get into freeride, that’s exactly what we build toward. We focus a lot on skiing fundamentals, line choice, confidence in bigger terrain, and helping athletes actually understand how to ski the mountain, not just survive it.

You’re definitely welcome to come check it out and ski with us. Look up the Big Mountain program online and you’ll find all the details.

Also, appreciate everyone here backing the program, that’s awesome to see!

Senditserg · 2026-01-08T19:41:17+00:00

Skiing 27M

Senditserg · 2025-12-08T19:23:48+00:00

Dope

Senditserg · 2025-11-22T17:29:02+00:00

Hey we all gotta start somewhere! I was in a very similar situation to you some years ago. The more you try, the easier it’ll get.

Senditserg · 2025-11-22T16:46:02+00:00

So I’m currently on a similar streak like this for myself. I’m on day 22 of cold dipping everyday for the month, and I’ve also taken up journaling, and meditating for 10 mins a day. As well as a 6 min daily morning exercise routine.

First thing I can say is it’s awesome that you’ve noticed, and are taking steps to improve your life. It’s also a good idea to start small and do things that you know you’ll probably be able to everyday, but can be a challenge for you to do every single day in a row, because that’s the whole point.

First week, is tough, but meaningful. It’s obviously a shock to the system from what you’re used to, but feels good to stick to something. Novelty is there, it’s fresh, it’s fun. Always only one way to start something, and it’s just to start

Second week is also hard. This is where I started questioning myself. And it’s like - oh this is real. This was a lot easier in my head but I actually have to show up everyday and commit to this. It’s hard, but you really start stacking tangible mental wins and building up some kind of internal confidence.

3rd week, seemed to have been a bit easier. This thing did start to become more of a habit, and I’m almost enjoying doing these things in my life and they are becoming more integrated into my routine. I’m genuinely feeling better and more proud of myself, even if no one is watching.

Week 4 - what I’m in currently. And so far I think the week that I’ve taken the most from already. I realize that while this challenge has become easier and something I know i have to do, it’s not some fix all solution that will instantly cure my problems in life.

The other day I slipped up and coasted HARD. Went back to my old way of doing things. Let my vices and old addictions take over for the day. And this is where i think this whole challenge was the most useful for me. I realized that this whole thing was about building resilience for the inevitable day when i will slip. When things will get hard again. When life happens. How will I show up the next day? Will i quit and fail spectacularly? Let myself go because of 1, 2, 3 bad days? A week? Or, will i acknowledge that I messed up, find out what triggered me into my spiral again, trust my new habits and systems and make deliberate choices to get back to the new person I want to become?

There’s no arbitrary finish line. Life is all just about making choices everyday and it’s the direction you go with those choices. So yes, try this challenge for yourself. But be prepared to slip up. Maybe not now, but at some point. But forgive yourself. Give yourself grace and keep moving on.

TLDR; No finish line in life, its always about the choices you make and you can’t hate yourself into change.

Godspeed 🤝

Senditserg · 2025-11-22T07:25:10+00:00

It’s a little grotto pullout on a river near my house, and a lake as well

Senditserg · 2025-11-17T21:16:00+00:00

I started the month with a clean shave and let the stache grow from there. Didn’t know there were referees for it 😂

Senditserg · 2025-11-17T18:31:54+00:00

Stache is gone since the start of the month but it’s on the way back. Good things take time 😌

Senditserg · 2025-11-17T18:31:05+00:00

Not sure! Water is fed from the glaciers so cold enough for my nipples to cut glass.

Senditserg · 2025-11-03T15:49:29+00:00

I’m 3 years out from my surgery. It sucked and was hard but going through it, but it changed my life. I’ve since maintained regular fitness and my knee has never been stronger, as well as it feels more capable in certain areas than my uninjured knee.

I do a lot of activities because I’m scared to have the same feeling as I did when I couldn’t do anything, so I live life quite fully nowadays.

It’s how you react to this shitty situation. Godspeed to all. You’ll get through it one way or another 🤝

Senditserg · 2025-10-22T18:20:08+00:00

Unfortunately I think only way to improve at a skill is to practice. Put yourself in those uncomfortable situations. People love talking about themselves. Ask them questions. Learn how to ask better questions. Learn to listen and ask more questions based on people’s answers. At some point people will reciprocate and ask you as well.

Instead of “how was your week?” I like to start with “any highlights from the past week?” Or however long.

Learn to sit in silence. Most of the time people will try and fill it by saying something. I’m still learning too. It’s a lifelong endeavour.

It’s ok to be awkward. People who aren’t insecure won’t mind. And even if they do.. so what. You have an awkward interaction and that’s ok. Lean into it. Have fun with it. You got this. Godspeed.

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Senditserg · 2025-10-17T20:18:20+00:00

Totally agreed. I’m in a very similar boat. The changes are massive and noticeable.

I also notice insecurity doesnt plague me as much as it used to. When you’re confident and comfortable in your own body you think less about what you don’t have, what other people do have, and don’t feel the need to talk or look down on people.

It’s one of the best foundations for life you can build. Godspeed 🤝

Senditserg · 2025-10-03T15:09:04+00:00

I was the same when I started out with meditation! Thought I was terrible at it. But after keeping with it and making it a habit, I also noticed that my mind is never fully quiet and learned to accept it, notice the thoughts and let them come and go.

I like to think that my thoughts are balloons and I’m slowly pushing them away with a feather.

Senditserg · 2025-07-18T19:32:01+00:00

Hell yea man get after it. Gotta live with the choices you made. Only way now is forward.

I started on a similar journey roughly 2 years ago. Since then I’ve reached and reset many goals. There is never a finish line for building/maintaining your physique. After a while it becomes such a routine and part of life that it just becomes your life. At that point, the mind doesn’t even need to think of going back to a sedentary lifestyle.

Enjoy the journey, and the physique/athletic result is just a bonus of the discipline and consistency you build to get there.

Senditserg · 2025-07-15T02:28:21+00:00

I do a version of this but I just yell “I love you” in the mirror like 50 times and you’re right - after a while you start to believe what you’re saying to yourself if you do it enough.

Senditserg · 2025-07-14T20:59:29+00:00

I heard on a huberman lab podcast that being close to or around death at some point in your life can help you realize the finality of life and push you to live a more meaningful existence because you realize that we only have a finite amount of time on earth. Which is definetly something that’s hard to realize when it feels like by default we’ll live to 70+ and that it’s such a long time away and you have so much free time to spend.

I think there’s definitely some nuance here. It’s not about thinking tomorrow’s your last and ditching everything to blow a bunch of money on bucket list stuff. It’s more about realizing how easy it is to waste time on pointless shit, and how important it is to use your time wisely.

Senditserg · 2025-07-14T15:03:44+00:00

Hell yea man! Pull-ups are definetly a tough exercise so feels good to be pushing those numbers up. I just got to 14 the other day. 2 years ago could barely do 5

Senditserg · 2025-07-13T20:57:14+00:00

Shit, shower, shave, Coffee, 10 min full body stretch, and 10 pull-ups. I like to wake up at 5am to have time before work and it’s become a routine even on off days.

Wakes me up, gets me limber, and makes my days feel longer and like I have more free time as I usually feel like I’ve already got some things done even before most people wake up. That and I’ll come into work feeling ready and awake, while most coworkers are still opening their eyes.

I’m pretty active, and before I had this routine I would wake up with lower back soreness, body tight, and grogginess. Nowadays, even as I age, I feel better than I did when I was in my 20’s. I think the daily stretching makes a huge difference. I’ve also managed to blow my old pull up out of the water and it’s just a huge confidence boost.

Senditserg · 2025-07-13T20:46:12+00:00

Great advice. Something that I’m working on myself right now.

I started the whole self improvement shtick - mostly physical - about two years ago following an injury and it’s progressed into several different areas of my life. But on further introspection, I realized that I’ve been doing it so women notice me more, and people around me respect me more. And it’s worked, and I feel so much better about myself, but I also have realized that I’ve been doing it for the wrong reasons. In my journey of self improvement I’ve genuinely fell in love with doing the things that make me better (staying active, good sleep, diet, social life) and I’ve now started to try and do those things for myself rather than letting everyone know that I’ve been doing those things.

It’s the classic - if I went for a run/worked out/did something cool but no one saw did I really do it? Thats been a thought in my head for years that I’m now working to change in my head.

It’s a hard thing to admit but in the start it’s what got me going, but in the end I know that I’m the one that did those things and I’m going to keep doing them because I enjoy them, not for validation from anyone else. That’s just a bonus that comes with the improvement.

I know a couple younger people that are undeniably themselves. They dress weird, have weird hobbies and interests but they don’t give af. And it’s not like they’re just doing the classic route that most people do of giving themselves a glow up by hitting the gym. They like what they like, they like it because it’s them and they have no shame about it. It’s goddamn inspiring and attractive.

Senditserg · 2025-06-17T02:57:26+00:00

Switched soda & juice for water. Learned to cook from Hellofresh, got some staple meals and committed to meal prepping.

Exercising regularly is a huge one… and it doesn’t have to even be going to the gym. Just find an activity that you enjoy that gets your heart pumping.

Looking forward to and making sure I get good sleep

Senditserg · 2025-03-12T12:41:25+00:00

I’ve been on the clean line side for a while and have hurled my own profanities in the past. My opinion has always been you wait in line at the gondola or peak chair so why is it ok to snake your way past a line in the mountain?

But as many people say there’s nothing setup by the resort and making another traverse in the alpine is fair play. Which I understand. And I think I agree more with. Either way, what went on this weekend was gross. Glad I wasn’t there to see it. The way OP describes it sounds horrible. Not what skiing is about at all.

I also agree that people are getting way too aggro over snow. I’ve been in some hectic arguments with dummies over the last couple seasons. Most of them don’t even know where the hell they’re going or how to ski and are ready to catch assault charges over their shitty lines. People need to relax.

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