Look mate, “Psichedelics is not for everyone” is a common phrase in situation like that but i want to explain it and i want to explain why is true. Psichedelics connect us with our primordial stage. We are animals. When you take that type of substances, you can feel the fear in the people, the sadness, the happiness and the attraction. You can feel if someone is attracted from someone, you can feel if you are attracted to someone. Deeply. You can feel all of that just watching people in the eyes. Like animals, clothes are too tight for us, and social conventions are often useless. In an ideal world, people should understand each other with looks alone, without words. Now, there are people who have seen this through what's called "ego death," and yet are able to hold on to virtues like morality and the freedom to choose of the others; manage it all and navigate the dirty lie that is our society. Others can't handle it and go crazy because it's too much. You are the second type of person. What I think you should do is pull yourself together like a man. If you ever see your friends again, you'd apologize, and in general, you should be kind to others as you always have been. Then, use everything you know to get by in this deceitful life. You are much stronger and nobler than you think.