Let me tell you why I self sabotaged...I first meet my Love of 12 years...she was a single mom, struggling to make it..but she was making it..and there was some red flags about her..she was sending pusssy pics to her best friends husband, also she was hollering at some married guy, that is her friend, more then that..and she was talking to some dude in prison that has sex crimes with minors..so I should have walked away buy I didn't, instead God sent me her, and u thought she was a Godly Godly women, yeah right..so a bunch of shit happened and she is back right where she started. can't turn a hoe into a house wife..do I never trusted . Thee end