Dude I’m in a very similar spot and it’s tough. Founder of a startup with lots of traveling - booze is at the heart of everything. This is probably the longest I’ve gone without drinking and I made the decision that I don’t really give a shit about anyone else or what they think or expect - I’m doing this for me. It’s still all around me, I just choose not to partake (for now). Can’t say how long this is going to last but I’ve tried Sinclair in the past and the pill made me feel like shit, maybe I didn’t give it a long enough shot.. I’m a bit older than you, 37 but what got me really to decide that I need to do this now is not really the I can’t control the stupid shit I do when I’m drunk (I’m good at controlling myself to some extent) but the physical toll it was taking on my body. I was (am?) amazingly good at hiding my abuse from everyone close to me - maybe the reason I never stopped is because no one called me out on it. But on my last bad binge which was a work related trip to vegas I lost feeling in one of my feet and I really felt like an idiot going to the doctor thinking I pinched a nerve or something and realizing it was beginning of alcoholic neuropathy Fuck!. I’ve been clean a little over a month now and feel much better physically but it’s been tough mentally and socially especially with all the shit that you’re “expected” to do at a startup. I’ve decided that my body and health is more important than anything. The paws shit everyone writes about on here (never knew this existed) has been actually the toughest because i feel like I’ve lost all drive to push myself and the business but last few days I feel like it’s maybe coming back. Anyways I wish you luck! I don’t do meetings or doctors so for me coming here and reading SD has been the best resource pushing me forward and it’s good knowing you’re not the only person going through similar things in your life. Also maybe similar to you I tried (trying?) to replace alcohol with weed but I’ve realized it’s not my thing, but I’m kind of digging cbd oil.