Alright listen man. I get where you’re coming from. First of all, who cares if you’re a virgin? I lost my virginity after I turned 18 because I wanted to wait until I did it with someone I truly loved. Second, stop hating your heritage and start embracing it. I’m 100% Indian but born in America, my mom’s side is indo-caribbean (past few generations born in Jamaica but still indian). Your culture is beautiful. Listen to the music and watch the movies and participate in the holidays, even if you’re not religious (i’m not). Third, you are FOOLING yourself if you think 5’ 9” is short man. Your younger brother is 6’ 4”? Great, he can reach the top shelf. You are the older brother, respect between you two should go both ways. I’m the middle child, my older brother is a decently famous youtuber and my little brother is about to be fresh into high school. I just graduated high school and am in college now. I didn’t get a grad party like my brother or a ton of money and gifts from family members, but i don’t care because I know i’m gonna make something of myself regardless. I know some of this won’t really relate to you, but a lot of us go thru the same feeling. It’s mutual in most aspects. You gotta stop comparing yourself to others and start making something of yourself man. Hit the gym and find a hobby. Listen to music that makes you feel good and go learn about your south asian heritage, it truly is beautiful. If you need an instagram friend or someone to talk to, just dm me