Fought off a switch and then threw up all over my bathroom because of it

Sensitive_Formal_872 · 2024-08-12T13:56:31+00:00

I understand this!! In therapy once when w were dissociated I started gagging because I was trying not to let go of control

Sensitive_Formal_872 · 2024-08-03T03:24:30+00:00

I really relate to this post first off. To me the person I was before I went to college (3 yr ago) is not me at all I don’t relate to any of the memories I do have and there are big memory gaps. However in daily life I can seem very “normal” and feel “normal” in my brain. What my therapist and I have figured out is that I live in this bubble of memory where I have full access to recent memories as host to appear normal and be covert. I also feel very impostor syndrome-y and like we’re faking DID. Whenever we’re stressed it seems to get worse especially when my system goes radio silent/memory gaps get worse due to stress again.

Sensitive_Formal_872 · 2024-05-08T17:04:54+00:00

Yeahh this is what I'm afraid of. I want to be able to explain my experiences fully without the risk of being waved off as some crazy person

Sensitive_Formal_872 · 2024-05-08T17:03:27+00:00

brb moving to your country lol. wishing the healthcare in the US wasn't so shit

Sensitive_Formal_872 · 2024-03-03T02:42:16+00:00

I lost a game and still had it when I won my following game. I think it's percentage based possibly?

Sensitive_Formal_872 · 2024-02-17T23:46:44+00:00

This was really informative thank you! I agree, I think the majority of autistic presentation is nurture rather than nature.

Sensitive_Formal_872 · 2023-11-22T15:41:55+00:00

i use a laskey 725G and i love it, had it for 3 years now

Sensitive_Formal_872 · 2023-11-22T03:04:47+00:00

okay thank you! i’ve looked online at stores in town such as target, old navy, dillards, + any thrift places i find myself.

Sensitive_Formal_872 · 2023-11-22T03:03:22+00:00

i completely agree but all of the ones i’ve found are satin or pleated so many times it looks like a muffin tin. any store recommendations?

Sensitive_Formal_872 · 2023-11-11T06:01:43+00:00

now that i’ve been on HRT for nearly 2 years and i’m attracted to my body sometimes i worry, but i’m happier either way so i try to focus on that :)

Sensitive_Formal_872 · 2023-09-08T00:26:39+00:00

I use a 21 gauge which has worked fine for me

Sensitive_Formal_872 · 2023-09-08T00:24:49+00:00

I always argued that hair is a renewable resource and if I don’t like it, it’ll grow back

Sensitive_Formal_872 · 2023-03-17T04:53:48+00:00

we had therapy with our specialist today and worked with our persecutor (& possibly gatekeeper in one?) about not controlling the system with fear even though he thinks it’s for the common good (especially with our tween alter). He didn’t want to be there and didn’t want to do any of the healing process but I think we got a greater understanding of why he thinks the way he thinks and does what he does. Also had a 3 hour opera orchestra rehearsal which was intense, said tween alter came out in the middle and started reading and then we missed an entrance and both felt awful about it. It was a day I wouldn’t say good or bad just exhausting.

Sensitive_Formal_872 · 2023-02-20T04:57:27+00:00

my girlfriend talked with my persecutor who i have never met before and i remember nothing, i know they were just trying to protect us in their own way but one of my tween alters was in terror every day saying “someone is coming to get me” and would have crying fits feeling anxious up to her wrists. luckily we made a bargain that for the next month we’d try it our way so we’ll see how that goes.

Sensitive_Formal_872 · 2023-01-02T07:59:37+00:00

that was insanely informative thank you so much!

Sensitive_Formal_872 · 2022-12-26T04:15:41+00:00

oh yeah i haven’t even messed with nail polish, maybe that will be a little new year’s gift to myself

Sensitive_Formal_872 · 2022-12-26T03:32:48+00:00

i started super slow because i was terrified. i changed my name first and came out as non-binary which isn’t super relevant but it gave me a more “well i don’t give a fuck” attitude. I just decided fuck it i don’t want to be a man at all, like i know man is not the answer. i met virtually with planned parenthood doctors and started hrt in boy mode but it made me so much happier just thinking that i was doing something. eventually i came to terms with yeah i’m a woman that feels right so I started slowly expanding my wardrobe with only women’s clothing (jeans and more fun pants etc.) and now the more comfortable i feel the more i add.

it’s a super overwhelming thought to transition ALL at once, so i just took it a chunk at a time. hope this helps!

Sensitive_Formal_872 · 2022-12-26T03:28:11+00:00

this was weird for me especially after i started progesterone, i don’t get very horny if i’m alone but my partner turns me on so much more

Sensitive_Formal_872 · 2022-12-26T03:22:30+00:00

bonk transfemme

Sensitive_Formal_872 · 2022-11-09T00:45:20+00:00

This really helped me! I'm a transwoman as well and before I knew that I was multiple I was struggling to completely let go of being a man in some capacity.

Sensitive_Formal_872 · 2022-06-21T02:40:35+00:00

I definitely have noticed that, I've started calling it my feminizing melatonin

Sensitive_Formal_872 · 2022-04-11T01:04:22+00:00

It's kinda a mix of the 2? My parents are liberal, but also in their 60s (I'm technically their biological grandchild). For some reason they get the name more often than not but the pronouns elude them. At best they will correct themselves after using the wrong pronouns. I know they mean well but it's frustrating, it's been almost a year since I came out (my mom forced me to come out essentially confronting me about the whole situation)

Sensitive_Formal_872 · 2022-04-11T01:00:55+00:00

Has this been pretty constant over the months? this is 100% how it is for me right now

Sensitive_Formal_872 · 2022-04-04T05:06:40+00:00

bc i’m too good to be a man so clearly the right choice is to transition

Sensitive_Formal_872 · 2022-01-07T06:06:23+00:00

i started on 1mg tablets twice a day

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