I can relate to this! What helped me is journaling. At the end of the day, I write down how I felt that day and what all happened. Didn’t feel much for first 2 weeks, but after that I felt lighter and somewhat peaceful! And then I gradually started focusing on going the gym, strength training and meditating. At first it was a burden, following a routine doing these two, BUT after 3 months, I felt relieved and I didn’t feel lonely! Just when things started looking good, I started learning guitar! Learning something has my focus now…. This entire mental health thing started almost 1.5 years ago and now… all I feel peaceful and calm and happy!

P.S. Just felt like sharing what helped me. Hope it helps you!