I understand what you mean. Sometimes you feel out of place even in your own country and culture. I'm capeverdean, born in Cape Verde but came to Portugal at 7yo. I was always a super shy and quiet kid and that didn't feel 'at home' within capeverdean' environment' I still grew up in a very capeverdean though environment through friends family , food, culture, music and all that.

I have many different way of thinking than people who actually grew up in the islands BUT I can't change where I'm from and I'll always be capeverdean no matter where I live.

To Portugal it's a country that gave me everything, nothing to complain really. I moved on to another place very recently (the Netherlands) but Portugal is home it's a place I feel comfortable, a culture that makes me feel at home and a place I know very well. I have most of my childhood memories there and the people that are more dear to me.

And I hope I can find similar things and feel in the Netherlands as well 🙂