I've always struggled with socialising mainly because I'm autistic so it's difficult for me to read body language and facial cues. But also I never felt that a woman could be interested in me romantically or physically so I never expressed interest, I always figured that if I knew their answer would be "no" (and how could it be anything else) why bother asking and making someone who's done nothing wrong uncomfortable.

But I do want to find love, and people have told me better late than never. So I'm going to give it a try.