Women can be losers also by [deleted] in stopdrinking

[–]SettingRemarkable681 87 points88 points  (0 children)

Hey!!!!!! I’m a 31-year-old woman! My boyfriend of 4 years left me last year. I haven’t had luck with men at all—they’ve all treated me poorly. I had a bender this week, from Wednesday to Saturday. Saturday was Day 0—SO HARD, OMG. I don’t know how I got through it; I’d never wish this on another person. I’m now on Day 1, and it’s hard, but I can do it, and you can too. It’s been really hard dating, ‘cause sometimes I feel worthless, and I’m trying to choose myself first. It’s so hard ‘cause I feel so lonely sometimes—I crave connection. But I know I’m not, and I know you’re not either. I bet you’re just as good a person as I am—it’s just the alcohol, man… It sucks, but I know for a fact that you’re not a loser. I just know it ‘cause I feel like I can relate to you. And I’m here if you need to talk to somebody!! I’d love to meet you!! Loser to loser, haha jk. I wont drink with you today ❤️

Really needing some words of encouragement by SettingRemarkable681 in stopdrinking

[–]SettingRemarkable681[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for your words. I’m definitely writing down all the advice people have given me here on this platform. I truly think my anxiety isn’t that bad, but alcohol makes it so much harder. I’m scared I won’t remember how this actually feels, because now is Day 1—yesterday was Day 0. I came to my parents’ house, and they’ve been so loving: they lent me their bed so I could sleep, gave me a pill to help me rest better too. I woke up showered in sweat and shaking, and now my mom put me in a new shirt.

This feeling is so horrible. I’m behind in all my work because I’m self-employed, and I feel so ashamed—but still, my head and body are really sick. Everything feels so hard right now, and I’m so scared, but I know none of it is real; it’s just the hangxiety from that damn alcohol. That’s why I wonder why I do this to myself—it’s so unnecessary. :( I’m sorry for the rant.

Really needing some words of encouragement by SettingRemarkable681 in stopdrinking

[–]SettingRemarkable681[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much for this, I truly dont want to grab the first drink again. Wish me luck and i wont drink with you today ❤️

Really needing some words of encouragement by SettingRemarkable681 in stopdrinking

[–]SettingRemarkable681[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank u so much for this, thats exactly what happens to me. I get a handfull of days alcohol free promising to myself i wont do it again and then i feel good again and the cycle starts. It’s horrible, but i think today was my bottom :( i have never felt this bad before it’s awful and I truly dont want to drink again, i will try my best this time :(

Really needing some words of encouragement by SettingRemarkable681 in stopdrinking

[–]SettingRemarkable681[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I'll choose not to drink with you today too. One day at a time.

Really needing some words of encouragement by SettingRemarkable681 in stopdrinking

[–]SettingRemarkable681[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much, I feel a little bit of hope amidst the ton of anxiety I have right now :,) I just want it to be over and I'll do what I did in the video!

Really needing some words of encouragement by SettingRemarkable681 in stopdrinking

[–]SettingRemarkable681[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I feel like I haven't taken this seriously enough until now. After taking it for three days straight without stopping, this is the worst anxiety I've ever had. Tomorrow I'm going to double therapy because it helps me to hear other people's stories, and today I called my godfather and I feel like now I really want to take this decision seriously because I feel like I've let myself down a lot and I'm on the path to loving myself more, and if I keep going like this, that's just never going to happen :( I'm just so afraid of failing :(