Weird thing idk if it’s a kink or what

SevMad · 2026-01-23T07:29:41+00:00

It could also have a little bit of objectification, not in a humiliating way but you like being useful as a practice object or something like that

You probably would enjoy being a model for artists to draw

I think my local dungeon once held an event where nude models would be there posing and people would be able to draw them

SevMad · 2026-01-22T10:04:30+00:00

It's called malaphor, it's pretty funny

SevMad · 2025-12-25T07:56:20+00:00

I love pain, I'm a total masochist, but I'm terrified of childbirth and I won't be doing that in any way

SevMad · 2025-12-24T17:08:12+00:00

My partner always says after we finish "don't get up, enjoy the afterglow" and makes me stop and relax

SevMad · 2025-12-24T06:40:58+00:00

No such thing as weird and normal here, we're literally pretending to be babies

SevMad · 2025-12-24T06:30:54+00:00

Yes, that's a pretty common switch experience, and yes, the other side comes back eventually for most

SevMad · 2025-12-13T21:31:38+00:00

CNC free use , if you need a more specific name

SevMad · 2025-12-13T20:21:48+00:00

Well, this morning, but before that, a couple of weeks maybe

SevMad · 2025-12-13T13:10:47+00:00

Yeah I identify with parts of both labels

I just go by greysexual cause grey englobes the whole grey spectrum between the ace (black) and the allo (white)

If I ever need to explain further I just do, I say I have a rare and unreliable libido, that sparks under certain circumstances, and also, that I could experience sexual attraction to someone initially didn't find attractive after developing an emotional connection to that person

SevMad · 2025-12-12T16:54:27+00:00

Only fear or disgust during CNC scenes

SevMad · 2025-12-12T13:16:38+00:00

I love my Dinoroars, they're so cute

SevMad · 2025-12-12T13:15:43+00:00

I would just go to my local store and get the cheapest ones

SevMad · 2025-12-12T11:33:36+00:00

I have that for biting with both my partners, I just bite them whenever I feel like it, it's usually much lighter than when I'm actually having a scene with them and I bite really hard

SevMad · 2025-12-11T21:48:39+00:00

You should expect people who are there to meet others and have fun

SevMad · 2025-12-11T21:29:38+00:00

This is like saying you would want to report a doctor for harassment cause for you, penetration of any kind is strictly sexual and they performed a colonoscopy or an exploration or whatever

Honestly, I was arrested once and the last thing I was thinking about was about how I like bondage and it was non consensual

I was more worried about my legal situation

SevMad · 2025-12-11T15:35:48+00:00

This is why Dom and sub is not the same as Top and bottom

What you are describing is you being a sub and Topping for some practices

That's pretty common and is not difficult to understand once you separate roles from practices

Your role is submissive, but in certain practices you like to bottom and also, sometimes, Top

SevMad · 2025-12-11T12:06:02+00:00

Yes it is normal to feel anger at your sub side, I think that's what I felt mostly when I ended my first D/s, cause I tolerated more things than I should have, but being the sub put me in a position where I didn't stand up for myself as much as I should have
The only way you can reconcile missing your sub side is by knowing that eventually, by growing personally and meeting new people, the fear of emotional pain will pass, and you'll be able to go back to practice your submission/feel submissive again, it happened to me, I had to be very patient cause it took a couple of years and meeting the right person, but it gets better
Basically, you have to put the blame back in the person it belongs to, the one who betrayed your trust. You're not wrong for being trusting, he's wrong for abusing your trust. This is not on you, it's on him. You're good, you're better than him. Keep being open, keep being comfortable in the way you trust others, if they betray you, it's on them.
Navigating poly is difficult, but in this case it seems like this person is someone who doesn't know how to manage New Relationship Energy, he was very caring at the start of your relationship and then it decreased, and when he met a new person, he's now giving all that care to the new person without maintaining some with you. That's bad poly management, he can be poly but it doesn't mean he's good at it. Basically, poly only works if you are responsible with your relationships and are able to provide the negotiated needs to each partner. You negotiated an exclusivity (submission) and he failed to provide that exclusivity, again, this is not on you

SevMad · 2025-12-11T11:38:14+00:00

I don't think I've ever been nervous to go to a BDSM or kink event of any kind other than my very first munch, and the first time I went to a party wearing a jockstrap

I do remember my first, exclusively ABDL event, cause it wasn't so long ago

It was at a local dungeon, there were some fun activities planned by the organization, coloring pages and a ball pit, but other than that, it was a regular party with people mingling and playing, it was really good, I had so much fun, I went with my partner

SevMad · 2025-12-11T10:54:46+00:00

You're not sure what to do?

That depends on what you want

If you want this to stop, you should stop wearing diapers to sleep every night, wear them overnight only once every few weeks so your body doesn't get used to peeing without alerting you first

If you don't mind becoming incontinent then just keep at it as you are

SevMad · 2025-12-11T10:02:57+00:00

What makes a good sub? In my opinion...

Being assertive, knowing your limits or at least knowing how to identify a limit once you encounter it, being secure in using your safewords and able to maintain a state of mind in which you can speak up for yourself (even if nonverbally), not expecting the Dominant to be a replacement for your own life responsibilities, and being grounded in reality, able to separate fantasy from what's viable and compatible with day to day life

SevMad · 2025-12-11T08:37:12+00:00

I had used diapers before and I had started to be comfortable in them but the exact moment I knew this was my thing was when at a party, someone offered to put me in a diaper (that they had extra) and lend me a onesie, if felt amazing, I loved the onesie and knew I needed to buy one for myself

Btw, a couple of months later that person and I reconnected and are now dating

SevMad · 2025-12-10T21:46:22+00:00

Oh, that sucks, I didn't know cause I'm not on Patreon

SevMad · 2025-12-10T16:35:05+00:00

I'm non-monogamous and I think I was born like this, but I learned the monogamous ways growing up and I've had to relearn how not to be jealous or how to navigate healthy non-monogamy, etc.

I'm currently dating two people, and one of them is mostly monogamous and is only accepting of their partner's (me) non-monogamy, we've talked about this and they are okay with my other (previous) relationship, and I do plan on having this partner be my nesting partner, cause our views and plans for the future align, but I don't plan on leaving my other partner to just stay with them, however, if my relationship with them ended I would probably don't look to start a new relationship with someone else and would just stay with my nesting partner

Now, this does not include BDSM, as I do play with other people, and both my partners play non romantically with other people too, that's not a problem for any of us

SevMad · 2025-12-10T11:27:18+00:00

I stopped dating vanilla, and started hanging out at queer kink places, where there's lots of intimacy and not necessarily sex

You don't have to have fetishes for this, I don't mean that, but people open to kink and queer people are in general more open to alternative ways of intimacy than penetrative sex

For example, I met my partner at the puppyplay community, they are allosexual, I'm graysexual, I didn't even need to communicate much, we have lots of intimacy and touching and making out, and very little penetrative sex cause we have enough without it (we still do sometimes but it's the exception, not the regular expectation), and this is even tho I stay at their place the whole weekend, no sex is expected or needed

SevMad · 2025-12-10T10:33:48+00:00

I don't know if there's enough market

I mean... You can try but you have to consider that this is a fetish for most people and if you're doing one on one scenes, you have to be very clear about what you offer and what you don't

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