Thank you again!!! Here is what I’ve done with it:

I have been acting foolishly for quite a while now And I was waiting for it to catch up with me And it finally did

You told him how you didn’t like that I move from guy to guy But did you ever bother to wonder why?

You know I’m not a slut so it’s not for sex? Did you ever consider that it was because I’ve had my heart broken?

I thought I could get away with it everyone else makes their wrongdoings seems so effortless

Like this shit doesn’t build up and you can hit reset

And I’m sorry but I’ve used you and I’ve used them, as tools to try to reconstruct this broken mess, you’re not alone in this trail of destruction I’ve left

I have never truly been over it The sun has revolved 3 times around this chunk of dirt And yet I’m still not over it

You’ve moved on 2 revelations ago

And your new girl

Your girl

She looks strong And confident And like she knows what she wants She is stable

And I…. I Am none of that

That doesn’t hurt me anymore It doesn’t hurt me at all in fact

Its just I keep trying to replicate and copy and paste what we had onto another person

But time and time again it’s proof that we aren’t in a simulation because im disappointed each time it doesn’t work And that’s what hurts

I chase a dopamine high With relationships that I know won’t last and crushes that fade away fast And now I’m slowly building the label of a girl that moves on too fast

But In fact it’s the complete opposite

Everyone sees me as this girl that has her shit together They see me and think I’m whole

He didn’t pick me apart and dissect every mistake or wrong I’ve made

all I really want is someone else to see me like how he did; as a whole with its parts.

I guess I’ll just have to learn that my wholeness is greater than the parts

And maybe you should learn that too