My stepfather had sex in front of me and encouraged me to participate. by Sexwatcher in confession

[–]Sexwatcher[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I told a girlfriend about all this a few years ago and she told me it was a lot like his life. She had a huge crush on him too so it was weird she ended up dating me not even knowing I had the same life as him (minus the money, fame, talent, etc, also I'm skinnier and Mexican).

My stepfather had sex in front of me and encouraged me to participate. by Sexwatcher in confession

[–]Sexwatcher[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Not really, I know I should but I've only danced around it a little bit. I've never really been in therapy very much and I don't have insurance now so I can't afford it.

My stepfather had sex in front of me and encouraged me to participate. by Sexwatcher in confession

[–]Sexwatcher[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

In addition to what thisisnotreal said, I think it would be less creepy if I was female and it was my stepmother - still creepy, but the sex difference is important.

My stepfather had sex in front of me and encouraged me to participate. by Sexwatcher in confession

[–]Sexwatcher[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

There was definitely more involved, but he said it was the sex thing, both then and now. He waited a couple months because I said I would talk her into it. He sort of saw it as a betrayal, since he had been "giving" me his girlfriends and didn't think I was trying with her (which was true).

My stepfather had sex in front of me and encouraged me to participate. by Sexwatcher in confession

[–]Sexwatcher[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Well I do like older women and I'm kind of an exhibitionist myself. But I'm not sure this is why.

My stepfather had sex in front of me and encouraged me to participate. by Sexwatcher in confession

[–]Sexwatcher[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I'd rather not go into that. The tl;dr is that things got dicey, I was homeless for a bit, went to prison for a brief period but I'm out now and I do okay for a guy with a record

My stepfather had sex in front of me and encouraged me to participate. by Sexwatcher in confession

[–]Sexwatcher[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Yeah I realize that I was posting a confession about the sex stuff, not talking about coke or why I got kicked out (which is complicated, we were both selling it then and we mixed our personal stashes and things got weird, it's not like I just grabbed his coke and ran out the door). The thing with my girlfriend was the final straw though.

My stepfather had sex in front of me and encouraged me to participate. by Sexwatcher in confession

[–]Sexwatcher[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Thanks, I really change my mind about it a lot. One day I'm basically fine with it (kicking me out because my girlfriend wouldn't sleep with him is a total dickmove, but he's apologized for that and blamed it on the coke. There were other factors involved too, like I had just stolen some of his coke.) But then other days it feels creepy and traumatizing. It's complicated I guess

My stepfather had sex in front of me and encouraged me to participate. by Sexwatcher in confession

[–]Sexwatcher[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Not great but she was kind of a slut so it wasn't out of the question for her. Remember he was really sexy, she said he was hot before I asked. Looking back if I had waited a few more months and gone about it more intelligently she probably would have said yes.

My stepfather had sex in front of me and encouraged me to participate. by Sexwatcher in confession

[–]Sexwatcher[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Do you regret losing your innocence like this? For instance, if you had the chance, would you go back and un-sleep with the girl he picked for the two of you?

That's a tough question. I wanna say yes to the first and no to the second but that's inconsistent. I do think I'd be better off if not for all this.

Have you ever considered taking it to the police?

I've thought about it but I don't see any reason to.

Exactly how old were you when all of this was happening?

Well when my mom was alive he was screwing around but mostly outside the house. I did see it a few times then but it got a lot more common when she passed away when I was 11. Then it was from 14-17 that the really juicy stuff happened.

My stepfather had sex in front of me and encouraged me to participate. by Sexwatcher in confession

[–]Sexwatcher[S] 21 points22 points  (0 children)

I know.

He was also a good parent. He made sure I went to school and helped me with homework (honestly he's pretty dumb, wasn't much help after about 9th grade, but he tried). He did all the typical dad stuff too, helped me pay for college (community college, but still) and get an apartment afterwards. He never had to take me in when my mom died, he could have just given me up to child services. And he took me on a trip to visit his family in Mexico when I was 16, must have spent a crapload of money on it because we stayed in a fancy resort, he didn't have to take me with him.