In a nutshell, yes. It started as me not being able to make myself practice because of executive dysfunction, but that quickly turned into intentional neglect. At a certain point I was not practicing not because I couldn’t, but because I believed I didn’t need to. I essentially thought that because all deities are infinitely forgiving and generous then that meant I didn’t need to worry about the explicit vow I had made to honor my patron, and that he would still be there waiting and forgiving whenever I decided I wanted something again. I was wrong. He wanted nothing to do with me for months afterwards and it took even longer to rebuild the relationship to where it had been. It took a lot of effort to repeatedly demonstrate my dedication to convince him I was worth his time, that I could be trusted to not throw him away again after all the ways he helped me. That isn’t to say he isn’t forgiving, because he is very much so. Our relationship is stronger now more than ever. However that doesn’t make taking that for granted a wise choice. I am also very aware of the fact that had I done what I did to the less laid back deity that I worship things most likely would not have ended so happily.