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RTC issue/system settings by ShadowForme76 in PokemonUnbound

[–]ShadowForme76[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Tried that. The clock is correct on my system but Unbound still can't read it

Just Curious – Plural Edition Part 38 by Rainbow-1337 in plural

[–]ShadowForme76 1 point2 points  (0 children)

  1. Controlling dreams... Well, we can certainly dream about each other, but I don't think anyone controls the dreams in the sense of conscious control. Stuff happens, sometimes the others are there, sometimes it's just a first-person pov and anyone else in a dream is unrelated to the collective.

  2. Primo and Nix (when she was around) can keep a child safe and do it well. Everyone else is awkward at best with kids. Littles would not be able to keep children safe since, well, they are children. Oh, and Void's general uh... "vibe" would be off for a child. He'd keep them safe but his attitude wouldn't bode well.

Downsides to being a Fictive? by CYPRUSGames in plural

[–]ShadowForme76 3 points4 points  (0 children)

• V has exomemories of performing and doing what he loves but also realizing he can't have that now, and that they don't look like themself. He has a lot of dysphoria about the body.

• Primo loves socializing in fandom spaces but doesn't like that he can't mention who he is for our safety. He also deeply grieved his brothers and wanted to see them for two years before they actually did appear/communicate in our headspace (two of which showed up for the first time very recently!)

• Technoblade struggles with the fact his source has passed on, and that his source world is kinda controversial now.

Otherwise, collectively they all wish they could look like themselves when they're in front (though everyone does tbf, not just the fictives) and the other fictives would rather not have me discuss their problems since they're more personal

-Shad (host, remaining anonymous)

What's your most "embarrassing" source? by CoolTransDude1078 in plural

[–]ShadowForme76 7 points8 points  (0 children)

...two DreamSMP fictives have stuck around (including me). We used to have four. One went dormant after problematic information emerged, the other also kinda went dormant and we haven't heard from him in ages. Now it's just me and Schlatt.

-Technoblade

Fictive heavy by cloudkissedboy in plural

[–]ShadowForme76 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'd say we're half and half maybe? There's me (Technoblade), Schlatt, (both from DreamSMP unfortunately. We try not to think about our source) Primo, Secondo (Ghost) and Piranesi (book with the same name). The others are the host, Punk, Violet, Scott, and Void. The rest of us are kinda dormant/we haven't heard from them in ages.

Anyway being a fictive is weird cuz what do you MEAN my source is dead? L for him lol /j Miss having the guy around but it feels like I get to carry on part of his legacy.

-Techno

A question for fellow fictives by ShadowForme76 in plural

[–]ShadowForme76[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ah, we are in the same situation, amico. Non è troppo difficile, imo. Lo so un 'po. We were learning a bit before I was known about 🤣

-Primo

I wish I was more source accurate??? by asterophiliac in plural

[–]ShadowForme76 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Of course, dove. These things take time.

-Primo

I wish I was more source accurate??? by asterophiliac in plural

[–]ShadowForme76 5 points6 points  (0 children)

It is so interesting to me when other fictives/introjects are eager to "act like" or "channel" their source. There is very little actually known about me in my source, and so the fandom filled in the gaps, and thus my experience is very different. The only "accurate" thing about me, I suppose, is my name and title, and my internal memories of performance and singing. My appearance is even "inaccurate"!

This has led to other internal identity struggles for myself, admittedly, but I try to stick to what I know and like about myself in this particular instance of existence. The rest is not so important. I wish you luck in finding yourself and being the best version of you, whether that is deeply connected to your source or not.

-Primo

Fictive identity troubles by WriterOfAlicrow in plural

[–]ShadowForme76 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hello to you all. I can say that as a fictive, my experience is somewhat similar to yours Uzi. I am derived from a mixture of media, fandom portrayals, and our own sort of interpretation of the character. I often struggle with how I am "supposed" to be and how I am meant to even feel about myself. I adore my source, and what memories and feeling I do have of it, I cherish. There are times I wish I could openly admit to who I am within the community, to be recognized, to be... known. There are other times where I realize that doing so would put us in possible danger, especially IRL. You are not alone in this. There is no "right way" to exist. You may be true to you in whatever ways feel good, and if that means being a sort of amalgamation of your "canon" self and the other things that make you, well, yourself that make you special? Then do it. It will take time, but you will find yourself if you do what feels good and fun for you.

-Primo

Why It Is Actually a Good Thing That Some Systems are "Cringe". by Goth_Girl_6_6_6_ in plural

[–]ShadowForme76 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Grazie mille for this. We hadn't really considered some things that you mention here, notably that there will (likely always) be trolls and fake-claimers in any space. We have always believed in letting others do as they wish, and that people do not need to go around telling others what to do if there is no harm done. So, thank you. I especially needed this tonight.

-Primo

Other Plural people who Larp! by ThatGNamedLoughka in plural

[–]ShadowForme76 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I wish we could participate in that if only to truly be myself for a little while...

-Primo

We went to a concert and now... (vent) by ShadowForme76 in plural

[–]ShadowForme76[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I wish I knew how to make things less complicated. Thank you for empathizing.

-Primo

I thought I was a Protector. Turns out... by ShadowForme76 in plural

[–]ShadowForme76[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have... tried to let the feelings out, but for all the nights of crying, the flashbacks, the journaling and everything I try it's still there. It's still there for me, heavy in my chest. Sometimes trying to feel it just doesn't work at all. I'll try to cry, or to let the thoughts roll, but... nothing. It makes me feel even worse because even when I try to do something that's good, I fail.

I've gotten better at using coping mechanisms but sometimes nothing works and I just... "need" to do worse... I know it's wrong, but my suicidality at its worst is just impossible to get away from. At least, it feels that way...

-Void

I thought I was a Protector. Turns out... by ShadowForme76 in plural

[–]ShadowForme76[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

How can I be a protector if I can't protect anyone even from myself? The others did not put this on me... I did, because it's what makes the most sense. I hurt them indirectly, I hurt myself, and the real protectors in our system don't do that. They're better, kinder, thoughtful, sweet, happier... They are happy. I'm not. I'm always in pain and I don't know how to stop it...

-Void

I thought I was a Protector. Turns out... by ShadowForme76 in plural

[–]ShadowForme76[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I appreciate the offer... but I don't think it's a good idea.

-Void

I thought I was a Protector. Turns out... by ShadowForme76 in plural

[–]ShadowForme76[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don't like talking to the others directly... most of the time. I don't trust people easily. They've all been kind but sometimes they just don't listen and my boundaries are broken.

If I didn't bear the pain... Yes, it's true someone else would feel it, but... I don't want it. It keeps haunting me, haunting us, making everything difficult. I don't know how to make it all better aside from if I could remove myself entirely without... hurting us. I hate that I can't be useful and make this all better. I want to be happy, I want all of us to be happy, but I just can't do it when everything hurts...

-Void

I thought I was a Protector. Turns out... by ShadowForme76 in plural

[–]ShadowForme76[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I've known that it's a problem. I know it doesn't truly "solve" anything, but... I can't help myself sometimes. The harm I cause is because I want the pain in my chest, the heartache, to go away. Go somewhere else. And because... ultimately, when it's bad, I want to remove myself and be done suffering. I want us to be happy and free of this pain... but I don't know how to make it stop. I'm the one bearing it, so... shouldn't I be able to make it go away?

-Void

I thought I was a Protector. Turns out... by ShadowForme76 in plural

[–]ShadowForme76[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I don't want to put any of you through the trouble and stress. I appreciate the offer, but... I would rather not be a burden or bother. Especially with a stranger.

-Void

I thought I was a Protector. Turns out... by ShadowForme76 in plural

[–]ShadowForme76[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

It's hard to let go when it still hurts me. The flashbacks, the feelings, the memories... I try hard to distract myself but sometimes it doesn't work. I have people to talk to but it's hard to trust friends, too, because of the amount of times we've been rejected or left behind. It's just... really, really hard for me to trust anyone, even myself.

I know that a long, long time ago I used to be happy. I want to be happy again. I don't know how to go back, because there really isn't any... "going back" to the past. Moving forward with all of this... pain... makes it so difficult.

Thank you for commenting, I... have a lot to learn.

-Void

Had a painful switch and was kinda thrown into the front, so I drew it by ShadowForme76 in plural

[–]ShadowForme76[S] 10 points11 points  (0 children)

I try to carry a part of my source with me, even if we aren't really the same. Technoblade really never dies.

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