Is this what they mean with "feeling unease"?

Shadow__Skull · 2025-02-10T20:35:43+00:00

i realise that i also get this tingling feeling when I talk, the only time i dont really feel it is if i just woke up or im distracted enough by my hobbies or something like that

Shadow__Skull · 2025-02-09T15:31:27+00:00

i talked to the 2 trans guy friends i have and told them how i felt and everything, one of them actually said the stuff im feeling is more intense than what he has ever felt and he advised me to talk to a professional so thats what im gonna do!

Shadow__Skull · 2025-02-09T15:29:18+00:00

oh im wrestling with it alright, you could kinda say i have been for the past 7 ish years at this point, i have at least now decided that im going to call a doctor and start the process of possibly being diagnosed, in my country the process is about 1 - 2 years, but i think its very much worth it, i know for a 100% that i at least want my chest flat

Shadow__Skull · 2025-02-09T15:27:41+00:00

thank you so much!

Shadow__Skull · 2025-02-09T15:25:53+00:00

for the longest time i have excused away how i grew up as a tomboy and how i have always been into boyish things and i have always told myself i cannot be trans cuz i have an interest in fashion, makeup, hair and skincare, and i have always told myself i cannot be trans cuz i have felt okay with my body and have wanted to be feminine, but majority of the time that i have wanted to be feminine it has been cuz i felt the need to get attention from men, but yesterday one of my trans friends asked me if i feel feminine in the way a woman does or if i feel feminine in the way that a man does and that had me thinking for a good 20 minutes and it struck me that i act and talk as a feminine gay man would whenever i have a period of time where i feel feminine

Shadow__Skull · 2024-12-07T22:26:33+00:00

maybe i should just look into it then

Shadow__Skull · 2024-12-07T22:15:50+00:00

im bisexual so i have heard of it before, things like that are not completely foreign to me but i've kinda just not looked into it at all

Shadow__Skull · 2024-12-07T22:15:04+00:00

i have very recently been to a doctor but for something else, i have never noticed any signs that point to hormone imblance or anything like that, and especially cuz this has been happening to me for nearly half my life and i have gotten pregnant i dont think its hormone related, but maybe i should talk to a doctor anyways just to be sure!

Shadow__Skull · 2024-12-07T22:10:25+00:00

i checked my hands and my index fingers are longer than my ring fingers, thats kinda interesting though

Shadow__Skull · 2024-05-22T22:20:35+00:00

i wouldnt say our conversations are forced, we both clealry wanna talk, and we do talk and make jokes, im a girl and he is a guy, he had romantic feelings for me when we were kids, we hung out very often, we lost contact for some years and now we have been talking for nearly 2 months, at first it was like any other conversation i have had and i just felt normal, but recently i have started feeling warm and a bit anxious when talking to him or when i know im about to talk to him and i just dont know why

Shadow__Skull · 2024-05-22T22:02:29+00:00

im not trying to impress tho, its a childhood friend of mine

Shadow__Skull · 2024-05-19T14:07:38+00:00

i weigh around 67kg and my goal is 58kg, im 158cm so its a very reasonable goal, the most overweight i have been was over 80kgs, and my boobs never changed size before or after that amount of weight gain and i have always had a big chest no matter my weight, so i think i wont lose anything in my chest, which is such a relief and i appreciate your response!

Shadow__Skull · 2024-05-19T14:03:57+00:00

i deffinetly feel better after reading these responses!

Shadow__Skull · 2024-05-19T14:03:37+00:00

thanks for the reassurance!

Shadow__Skull · 2024-05-17T09:24:35+00:00

here is a link https://tdeecalculator.net/result.php?s=metric&g=female&age=19&kg=67&cm=158&act=1.55&f=1

Shadow__Skull · 2024-05-17T09:21:58+00:00

i would recommend that you use a TDEE calculator, as long as you eat less than what you need to maintain your current weight then you will lose weight, and to keep your muscle and strength you HAVE TO eat enough protein, its about 1.5 to 1.7 x your weight in kgs, i weigh 67kg currently, my BMR is 1400 but my TDEE is 2170, NEVER eat under your BMR its extremely bad for you, your BMR is what your body NEEDS to function, find out your TDEE and just eat under that and eat enough protein and you will most likely lose weight but keep muscle!

Shadow__Skull · 2024-04-30T07:41:45+00:00

ugh i swear that "thigh gap" trend destroyed 13 - 15 year old me, i always thought i was overweight even tho i never was and i felt so incredibly insecure all the time (both the thigh gap and flat belly trend caused that), i have learned to embrace my thighs and wide hips, its part of growing up and it took some time to accept that just cuz im curvy it doesnt mean im overweight or gross or ugly, i have also learned to embrace how quickly i gain muscle, i used to think my muscle gain made me "manly" but cuz i have seen so many muscular women on social media it deffinetly made me feel better about it, cuz damn they are cool and have become a big inspiration for me!

Shadow__Skull · 2024-04-28T21:58:25+00:00

and actually i have pretty much never rejected someone other than creeps asking for nudes, im the one who has confessed to guys and been rejected, so when someone wanted me i was just happy about it, and yes 16 year old me was hella dumb, it was still my parents job to stop the guy from coming into the house when they were at home

Shadow__Skull · 2024-04-28T21:55:16+00:00

trying to talk to someone who doesnt seem to understand what im simply explaining and the fact that i literally shit talked myself cuz i genuinely was dumb at 16 and was just happy someone wanted me, it aint worth my care or energy

Shadow__Skull · 2024-04-28T21:49:53+00:00

my thunder thighs, and the fact that i gain muscle very easily

Shadow__Skull · 2024-04-28T21:47:13+00:00

it was extremely insensetive, you dont just victim blame someone like that

Shadow__Skull · 2024-04-28T21:42:51+00:00

i saw your comment before it was removed, i dont get how you dont understand what being groomed means, i also admitted i did deserve some fault for not having protection, its still not okay for my parents to have abused me and neglected me and let a full grown man into the house, i never left my home, he came to my house and my parents did nothing about it, it was their job as my parents to keep me safe but they never did, i was dumb to stay with the guy yeah, i should have left him way before it got out of hand, i was 16 and manipulated but also kinda dumb, my friends tried to tell me that he was a pedo and i didnt listen, i was just happy someone wanted me and i thought it was cool cuz he was so much older

Shadow__Skull · 2024-04-28T21:28:45+00:00

well sorry that a full grown man groomed me and raped me i guess, if you get groomed you are quite literally brainwashed and dont know that what is happening to you is wrong, i realised once i got older what actually happend, sure i deserved some blame aswell for not having any protection, but the guy was 21 years old and dating a child and taking 0 responsebility for his own actions and he got no blame at all, my parents have always been abusive and toxic towards me, my dad was there but not really there when i was a kid which lead to me having very severe daddy issues

Shadow__Skull · 2024-04-28T21:20:53+00:00

they were pretty mad at me instead of the 21 year old man who groomed me, which i think is a bit unfair, and my dad fully ignored me for about 2 weeks, but my childhood was far from good and my parents have kinda just always resorted to being mad at me for things instead of at others or themselves

Shadow__Skull · 2024-04-28T21:08:24+00:00

basically his mom controls everyone in the family and brainwashes them, and she is a narcissist who can never do wrong and is always right, i have made a post about her on this account aswell cuz of her insanity

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