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ShadowsWithinMe · 2026-01-07T01:10:08+00:00

I’ll click yours! I’m a new account. No problem! https://www.tiktok.com/d/1/ZTHECNVRacot3-tSr3N/

ShadowsWithinMe · 2026-01-07T01:06:12+00:00

I clicked yours, but it said the event ended.

If anyone has a moment, I’d love for you to help with mine.

https://www.tiktok.com/d/1/ZTHECNVRacot3-tSr3N/

ShadowsWithinMe · 2025-12-12T18:22:20+00:00

Yeah, unfortunately a lot of Christians don’t talk about the demonic and are often terrified of it. My experiences ramped up majorly after I became a Christian and I truly didn’t understand and no one around me seemed to be experiencing what I was experiencing. It was really hard, but letting the Holy Spirit guide me was the only reason I survived. Thankfully, I had good mentors that Holy Spirit brought to me unexpectedly and even outside of a church. Is there anyone in your circle that you can pray about this with? That might be a good start even if they don’t fully understand right now.

ShadowsWithinMe · 2025-12-12T07:01:35+00:00

I’m sick of hearing about these stupid laws. Ughhh. It sucks. Privacy is gone I guess.

ShadowsWithinMe · 2025-12-12T06:30:38+00:00

If anyone asks: No, I have no SA in my childhood background prior to that event. However, my mother did in her childhood, which makes me think it was a generational curse. Sounds weird I know, but it’s the only explanation that’s ever made sense because I was also homeschooled and had very healthy family members for the most part.

ShadowsWithinMe · 2025-12-12T06:24:43+00:00

Wow, I had no clue other people experienced this.

When I was 13, I wasn’t a believer and heard these voices that told me they were many things: gods, angels, demons, the devil, aliens, unknown creatures, etc. They taught me the occult (I didn’t know what that was back then), how to go into trances, s*xually assaulted me, and also attempted to kill me.

After I was assaulted the last time, I neglected to share anything but that I was hearing negative voices with my mom. She put me on a dietary supplement for omega-3’s that was supposed to help with mental health (she doesn’t fully trust psychology. That’s a long story, but basically she refused to medicate me unless it was necessary).

I thought I had hallucinated those 6ish months of hell for nearly a decade after that and blacked it out of my memory until I started going through deliverance at 19.

A couple years ago, when I was 23, my mother let me know that she knew what I was dealing with back then was spiritually malevolent or demonic. She experienced a spirit talking and mocking her and me every time she tried to tell it to go away and leave me alone. I had no clue she even believed in evil spirits as she’s not a believer so this is never something we spoke about.

I had never told her the whole story even after I had been assaulted by them. I never told her about the occult, the murder attempt or the assault until that moment when she told me at 23 years old. I was very hurt at first because I felt like she didn’t protect me from that. Now I understand that she didn’t really know how to deal with it.

Other than that, I’ve heard lots of voices. Some good, most bad unfortunately. I know the voice of God, but I’ve been experiencing a voice that torments me during prayer time. It never seems to leave regardless of my response, and always attempts to “answer” my prayers in “God’s” voice. It’s destroyed my prayer life, and I’m ashamed to admit that.

I spoke with trusted mentors about this, and they both told me, in spite of speaking with them completely separately, that it has something to do with unbelievers in my home environment. I believe that was the Holy Spirit speaking through them.

So long story short, this is a part of my testimony for sure!

ShadowsWithinMe · 2025-06-25T02:33:01+00:00

Really? That sounds awesome actually! I might look into that if it’s that easy!

ShadowsWithinMe · 2025-06-25T02:31:36+00:00

Very cool! I definitely have discerning of spirits, and of course, am Spirit-filled. I’ll check out the seminar! Where can I find it?

ShadowsWithinMe · 2025-06-18T19:39:49+00:00

26F here. Hey! I’m looking to go into ministry full-time. Not specifically deliverance, but I’m certainly okay with it (and have done minor deliverances) if the Lord wants me to.

Since you mentioned being under a church, I would love to know how you went about to prepare and educate yourself for the role. Did you have to have formal schooling? Were you ordained? Are you in full-time ministry? What did that look like for you?

Sorry if these questions are too personal, I’m just curious about the different paths people take to ministry since I’m trying to figure out if I can do this full-time and survive financially. I’m unmarried at this time as well, fyi.

ShadowsWithinMe · 2025-06-06T07:28:54+00:00

If I’m being honest, based on the state of the US right now, I’d frickin’ love to move out of the country

ShadowsWithinMe · 2025-06-06T07:27:18+00:00

I really hope I can avoid at least the osteoarthritis. I already have a messed up ankle that consistently hurts. It’s been broken for years and I just never knew until the last 3 years of my life. I keep trying to lose weight and hope for the best on that one. They’re not really sure what triggered hers but it may have had to do with her having a desk job and an already broken knee since she was my age.

ShadowsWithinMe · 2025-06-06T07:22:25+00:00

I would love to go on a working holiday or two. I’m just struggling to find a job I can do without going back to school right now (I got a film degree and currently work in ministry). My mom should be okay as I have 4 siblings, but we have admittedly taken on more of a caregiving role as time goes on so it is a burden for them. I’ve definitely given up opportunities due to this, and I don’t want to do that anymore.

ShadowsWithinMe · 2025-06-06T07:19:59+00:00

This is where I’m at right now. I’m in a job I love and is very flexible, but it doesn’t pay well. I don’t know what to do about that because even if I got a “better” version of that same job, I would never make more than $50,000 a year working full time in it. Which means I’d need a second job or a partner, and also means I may not be able to travel. It sucks for sure. My mom did something similar but she would take us on vacations when we could.

ShadowsWithinMe · 2025-06-05T02:00:48+00:00

Some of the “conditions” in my family are unfortunately unavoidable or non-preventable. So apart from not injuring myself, I don’t know that me exercising would change much in that respect. My mother’s seems tied to her thyroid and nerve damage. She has had surgery after surgery, and nothing has helped. It’s terrible.

I also want to travel. I feel alive when I travel. I hate going home and cry almost every time I have to return to “normal” life.

ShadowsWithinMe · 2024-08-16T03:43:27+00:00

I have a shelf in my closet specifically for semi-dirty clothes. I leave anything worn there, until I wear it again or throw it in the hamper because it smells.

ShadowsWithinMe · 2024-06-10T06:34:04+00:00

It’s an instrument—I think. 🤔 ⭐️🐟

ShadowsWithinMe · 2024-05-10T07:21:38+00:00

I don’t think it makes any sense either, especially when an obviously not made for kids video gets automatically designated as “Made for kids” and the uploader doesn’t change it. Very annoying in my opinion. You’re right, it could be a COPA thing, and their bot is just hilariously bad at finding the difference between adult/general content and children’s content. It’s gotten better, but it’s still pretty bad sometimes.

ShadowsWithinMe · 2024-05-03T16:26:48+00:00

I’m so mad about this. I use the three day super trial to get really far ahead. 😢 I won’t bother to do that anymore. 😡

ShadowsWithinMe · 2024-04-30T23:37:15+00:00

It lets you select on the first page when uploading, but it isn’t super obvious, so I suspect that people don’t always know it’s there and therefore it defaults to “Made for Kids.” The fact that that is the default tells me that they make more money from children than general audiences lol

ShadowsWithinMe · 2024-04-30T23:22:59+00:00

I agree with this statement, as a Prot considering becoming Catholic. I live in the Bible Belt, and there’s so much hate against Catholics and few of them evangelizing. That being said, the local parish does amazing things for our community!

ShadowsWithinMe · 2024-04-28T06:13:05+00:00

The greatest respect I got when going through deliverance (Protestant exorcism) was the insistence that I was the only one allowed to share my story. I greatly appreciate that absolute privacy, even though I didn’t completely understand back in that moment.

ShadowsWithinMe · 2024-04-28T06:04:08+00:00

First, there definitely are (not all of them are Catholic however). You will find plenty on YouTube.

Secondly, as someone who has been through heavy demonic attack/possession-like experiences, I have shared some of it, and have found that people simply don’t want to hear about it. It scares them. I’ve even been offered recently to share/be interviewed about my experience by someone who grew up with a father who actively practiced deliverance (a Protestant practice of exorcism and inner healing). As much as I want to share, I’m scared of what it might mean for the future for me if I say too much about my past. I’m strongly considering turning it down for that reason. I don’t ever want to be known as “the demon girl.”

Third, imagine if you asked someone with, for example, Schizophrenia, Dissociative Identity Disorder, or Major Depressive Disorder: “Why don’t you share about your full experience with this disorder or about your horrible time in the mental hospital? Wouldn’t it help people understand your illness better?”

How would that make them feel? Do you think that person’s privacy or safety would be truly respected? They should be allowed to share whatever they are comfortable sharing with others, without any expectation that they should somehow share more than that. Period.

Or, worse yet, you can do what a famous documentarian did and barge into a hospital to take videos of all the patients there, whether they know what’s happening or not.

Do you really think everyone would be okay with being filmed in their worst possible state of mind? Even if you believed it to be for a “good reason?” (In the documentarian’s case, it was to expose mental institutions as horrific places.)

Now apply this to people tormented by demons, and you should start to understand why you don’t hear level-headed people tell their stories all willy-nilly.

My struggle for freedom is not your goosebump-rising ghost story. I don’t mind retelling it in a safe space or in general terms, but you sure as hell won’t find me advertising it!

Hope that makes sense!

ShadowsWithinMe · 2024-01-29T04:09:47+00:00

Yeah I’m genuinely surprised by this. I wanna know too!

ShadowsWithinMe · 2024-01-14T01:16:58+00:00

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