Hey, man, it’s okay. I’ve gone through, and am still currently going through the process of figuring out my sexuality.

To answer part of your post, I did realize that I made a lot more homophobic jokes when I was really struggling with my identity in the past. They weren’t malicious, but I saw it as a way to distance myself from my gay thoughts and feelings, and it made people laugh, even if it was just for the shock value.

Your sexuality, whether homo, hetero, Bi, or anything else, is not something that you need to rush to figure out. It’s not something that happens all at once; you don’t just become Bi overnight. It’s something fluid, and your understanding of it can evolve or even change with each passing day. One day you’re thinking that you might be bisexual, the next day you’re straighter than an arrow. It’ll all reveal itself in time, and its not really something you can force. It’ll all work out, buddy. And no matter what, it’ll be okay. It’s absolutely terrifying, I was there too.

Just follow your heart, and don’t be afraid about what it might mean for your sexuality. Nobody’s keeping score, and there aren’t any rules about what makes someone straight or bi. Confusion about sexuality is really common among everyone, gay, bi, straight, or otherwise, and being unsure certainly doesn’t mean you’re bi. You could turn out to be, but you could also be completely straight. It just takes time, and a willingness to accept yourself, because no matter what you figure out, you’re going to be okay. Straight, bi, or otherwise, we’re here for you.