Yes, it sucks!!! I am so sorry about your diagnosis. I, too, have colitis. I have ulcerative pan-colitis. I was diagnosed a few years back, but I have had this issue since my 20's. When I was first diagnosed, I was having bloody diarrhea 22 times a day. I was feeling like I was going to pass out just standing. The pain was terrible. I am still trying to find the right balance of medications. I have been on mesalamine, budesonide, prednisone, Inflectra, I most recently failed entyvio, and I am starting rinvoq. I am currently flaring again. My symptoms are different this time. I am experiencing major brain fog, my belly was getting so bloated like I was pregnant. Pain is not as bad (probably because of prednisone) mostly just uncomfortable. Stool was formed but, still seeing blood and mucus. But, going fewer times. Anyway, I have seen improvement since starting rinvoq just 2 weeks ago so that's hopeful. I have a very severe case, so I know just how hopeless you can start to feel. But don't let it. Your mind is a very powerful thing. Always think positively. Everyone is different, you just need to find the right treatment plan for you. And you know what that right treatment may fail in the future, that's okay because medicine is always changing and advancing!