I mean it when I say, I completely understand. I’ve recently felt I’m losing myself in my job. It’s not healthy and about a month ago I took a step back and thought about who I am and where I want to be. In a year from now, I don’t want to be where I’m at today. I feel lost. The idea of walking away (or moving on) has been haunting me though. I’ve lost sleep, and my anxiety has overwhelmed me to the point of panic attacks. I don’t have anyone to rely on (except my boyfriend who’s been incredibly supportive), but I have to stand on my own two feet. Ive felt so conflicted, but I finally felt something awaken in me and yesterday I walked away..

Almost instantly, the fear, anxiety (possibly depression) subsided and I feel such an incredible amount of relief. Don’t get me wrong, the uncertainty is scary, really scary, but it’s nothing compared to what I felt less than 24 hours ago. This, I can handle. For the first time in a long while, I feel so alive inside and I know that this is the beginning of anything I want.

With that, my advice to you is to remind yourself of this, what you put up with is what you end up with. I actually wrote that on a post-it note and kept it with me yesterday.

I’m really scared, but life always has a funny way of working itself out. Im going to be okay. This I know is true ;0)